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35 - Tine's POV

CHAPTER 35
Tine’s POV
(time skip : 2 years later)
Time passed by fast, I’m finally working as a lawyer at the firm I interned and during the last 2 years a lot has happened. P’Type and Man suddenly got engaged and is planning to get married in the next few months. I even asked him why Man suddenly proposed to him. But he said that, why do they have to wait longer if they are sure about how they feel about each other? “our love is not the type to wait even longer like yours. Yes, it would be fun to explore the world even more but Man and I thought that it would be more fun to explore the world even more together. Not all relationships want to take everything slow like you guys do. I am not getting married to him just because I want to tie him down to me before one of his ex girlfriends come and get back with him. We are getting married because we know that we won’t be able to live forever. And that we should take all the time we have left to enjoy and fall in love even more.  We are both not sure of what’s there in the future, therefore we are making our decisions today before we change our minds tomorrow” said P’Type.
Maybe P’Type is right, I don’t even know why both and Sarawat and I haven’t really thought about it. I don’t know, if we are not ready or what but we just didn’t talk about it this days. When he became a permanent employee a month later than me, he became so busy and so did I. Because of that we lost time for each other on weekdays and catch every weekends. But that doesn’t mean that we love each other less, it’s just that maybe we both got so focused to the world outside of our relationship that we imagined back in college. Time has really passed by, I don’t even know if I’ll ever get married like what I’ve imagined myself to become in the future. Phukong has went back to Chiang Mai as well. After he finished his paper, he said he wants to go back home and visit his parents incase Sarawat feels awkward to propose to me because he is around. But Phukong has been gone for 5 months now and nothing really happened.
We go out when we’re both free, then we talk but it doesn’t feel like he wants to mention something like that at all. I am not greedy or expecting or more worse assuming that he’ll suddenly propose to me like how  Man did just because we are already 5 years together. But P’Type was right, that we are not getting any younger and that we won’t be able to settle down if we keep caring on the world outside of our relationship all the time which in the first place should have not existed at all. But I don’t want to ask him about it. I don’t want him to think that I am the greedy one and that I can’t wait. Because I don’t really know the reason why he hasn’t been asking me. Who knows maybe he is not yet ready? Then what should I do? I can’t push him because I am getting paranoid that he might leave me.  As I got back home, he ran and hugged me tightly. “what’s wrong with you? Did you drink and got sick?” I asked him “no, I just feel tired and I want to rest in you. I had a lot to do at work today so I can’t even eat properly. And I miss you so I felt more tired, I couldn’t even hear the voice of my source of strength” he said. “you talk so sweet when you are tired, I wish you are tired everyday so you’ll always say that you miss me and hug me everytime you are tired” I told him as I hug him back.
“I love you” he said “do you really still love me like you do back then? Or did something changed?” I asked him that it made him worry “what did you say? How did you even think like that?” he returned the question back to me. “nothing. I just thought that it’s been 2 years since you met my parents. They said that when we are both stable we can get married, I think right now we already are. We’re both permanent employees, and we’ve moved to a different house too. But how come you never talk to me about it? How come you never ask me about it? How come you never asked me even once the past 2 years if I want to get married?” “hey nuisance, what have you been thinking this days? Were you jealous of P’Type and Man? Because they are getting married? Look Tine, not because I don’t tell you everyday it means that I don’t love you anymore because that will never ever happen so remember that. And one more thing,  yes we have already stabilized everything but that doesn’t also mean that we should already marry. I am not saying that we should still take it slow at this age either. But I am still waiting for something to happen, so please bear with me as  I wait for that to happen. Don’t worry, not getting married doesn’t mean that I don’t love you ok? Just wait with me, and when the time comes I’ll get married with you without you even knowing”
Actually, I don’t have any idea about what he’s talking about. But seriously, I just trust him so much that I dare not ask. Maybe he is still waiting something about work or something else regarding his family or what. But I don’t want to ask anymore because knowing that he still loves me is more than enough to assure me that he will marry when the perfect time comes. Usually he is not the type to believe in perfect timing or what but this time, I guess this kinds of things matter to him. I don’t really know but all I can do right now is to trust every decision he is yet to make. For sure it’s for the best, the best thing to do is to wait and trust him. Even if I may not know anything, it’s fine. Because he already assured me that he will marry me, he will marry and we will continue to live this contented life until we’re both old and gray. Right now, my worries went away because he already cleared it out and that’s more than enough for me to hear that he has everything planned already.

One time at lunch, both Fong and Phuek asked me seriously. If I had ever asked my boyfriend if he still feels the same for me. Which made me think that we never asked each other about the love we give each other. He just tells me that he loves me from time to time and I do too, but we don’t say any more than that. So I asked them why I should ask my boyfriend things like that. But they said not all feelings stay the same after a long time, it’s possible for some couples and it could not be for some couples too. And that it’s important to ask because pretending will only hurt each party even more. But seriously, after I had asked Sarawat about it I realized that some couples just don’t say it verbally. And that not all the couples are like what Fong and Phuek mentioned, and we are not included in what they talked about that day. Because the past 5 years, yes we got busy and had little and little time for each other as days passes by. But never did we ever got cold, and when we have breaks we catch up as much as we could. I just think that our couple is great at balancing time, I actuallly thought that he lost his care for me when he didn’t get jealous over work like how he used to be. It was all new to me since he was the clingy type ever since we got off college. But he didn’t care anymore as time passed by, then I realized that we just more mature than how we used too. He didn’t lose his love and care for me, yet he got very understanding that we are both working. And our work belongs to the world outside our relationship which means we have our privacy on it.
I was overthinking about his actions a lot. It was hard to guess what he’s thinking because he wasn’t really the type to tell me about it. And he got and more silent as time went by. But as we talked about it, he told me that it’s all part of the both of us growing up. And that not telling me is not because I am no longer involved in his life but because he knows that I have enough on my plate and that he doesn’t want me to get more stressed as I already am with my own line of work. Everytime I worry about his work he always remind me that in our relationship we have two types of world. Our relationship world and the world outside our relationship and that we must divide our things well according to this two worlds. If it’s inside our relationship then we must be open with everything, share all the problems and burdens and also we should get through it together. But if it’s outside of our relationship, it’s our choice if we want to share it together or not. All decisions must be respected as well, I get over the line everytime so he tells me everytime as well. He told me that we should still enjoy our private and personal lives while we can. Because when we get married, he said that he will never let me think about everything all alone. Looking back, I think that all this time he wanted me to treasure my freedom while I still can, he wants me to enjoy a life apart from him before sharing everything together. Sometimes I think that he so considerate and thoughtful of me, sometimes I think that he just got so mysterious but above all I should just trust him. We are not engaged yet but we are about too, and I can’t agree to a proposal of someone whom I don’t trust right? As I eat my lunch together with Phuek and Fong, my phone rang. As I see the caller ID it was P’Type.
“hello?”
“Tine, I’ve been calling you since last night why didn’t you answer? I thought something wrong happened to you”
“sorry P, I was caught up with work so I turned my phone off to keep away from all the distractions. Why P? is there something wrong”
“Man and I have found our date for our wedding”
“huh? Why so fast P? I thought you said you’ll plan everything first and then you’ll look for the date? Why did you suddenly wanted to hurry it?”
“actually, we don’t want a big party for the wedding. We just want to have our close friends and family so planning it didn’t take much time. And we are also planning to live with mom and dad for quite some time in the States after the wedding so we had it planned early”
“why are you going there? Are you migrating too?”
“don’t worry, we are not. We were just assigned a couple of business matters by our company there. It’s gonna be a 5 months long project so we might be there for a couple of months too. The date for our flight is set in the next two months so we want to get married before that. We already decided to get married this year so we don’t want to postpone that. Since we’re gonna be busy, we have decided to get married before we leave”
“it came so suddenly. So? When is it gonna be?”
“next month. So I’m asking if you can help me with the preparations. Man and I decided to divide the work into two so we’ll finish even faster. Can you ask for a work at home permission from your boss?”
“huh? I have to come over? Well, that’s not hard but I’ll have to get permission from my boss and Sarawat as well. Can I call you back when I get the answer?”
“ok, the sooner the better. Get back to me as fast as you could when you have the answer”
“yeah sure, I’ll call you again later after I have asked permission. Bye”
“bye”