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32 - Sarawat's POV

CHAPTER 32
Sarawat’s POV
Did we really rush on it? Were we too early or was it just the right timing? I mean, seeing how Pear and Boss took years to be together made me think if it was really to early for everything. “what are you thinking about? You seem too serious P, P’Tine is currently fixing clothes” Phukong suddenly came to wake me up from a weird thought in the sofa “nothing, I was having mature thoughts about life, our life. You wouldn’t understand even if I tell you” I answered him “well, that’s all because you can’t call me an adult yet. How do you expect me to get it? And besides I’m still too young to worry about things in life. I just want to live in the moment with P’Mil, who knows maybe he isn’t really gonna stay with me for a long time so I better enjoy fun times  with him right? I mean, you’re also not that old why do you have to worry all the time? Why do you have to think about the future all the time as if it’s coming tomorrow”
“how can I not? When I felt like I am still not enough, I promised his parents that when the day comes that they finally give his hands to me I’d give him the best life he could ever have. But the truth is, I don’t even know where to start. All I know is that I love him, maybe I was too impulsive to only think about my feelings for him and not consider what will happen to him when he goes through all the journey with me” I said “but I think you are overeacting . He loves you for who you are and not for who you will become. Don’t you know that being in love with him only considers how you feel and not what will happen.  You weren’t being too impulsive P, you were expressing how you’ve always felt without letting anyone stop you. I did the same with P’Mil”
I just love him, I thought that was the only thing that should matter. But as we growolder, as we get more mature in life I realized that being stable is really important. Maybe Phukong could be right that I was overthinking it, but he can only have that kind of point of view because he is still too young to understand anything. Life will get hard but  I have to fight and live on because I love him. Yes it’s not the only thing that should matter but it should be the one to make me keep on going on. After that late night chat with Phukong I went back to our room and found him sleeping already. I bet he was so tired, even if he wanted to rest so much he never forgets about his responsibilities  to me, Phukong and our friends.
He’s that thoughtful that I can never give him up even if gets hard.  It was already so hard from the start but we’ve come this far, I can’t let anything make me give him up just because I couldn’t find ways to survive our challenge in life. Well, it’s too hard to understand too but it’s fine. Because we love each other and that makes us go on in life.  As I woke up from the sun shining in my face he was already gone beside me. I went out of the room to check on them after taking a bath. And they were laughing while eating waffles together. “what’s with all this? Why is everyone eating waffles without me?” I asked  them “I ordered breakfast outside, I felt sick of cooking for you guys so I decided to just buy some. Come and eat with us, I didn’t wake you up because I figured that you might still be tired.” I went to eat waffles and fresh milk with them.  “I’ll be getting back to work today like you are too. So Phukong will be left home to continue his paper like the usual. Don’t have anyone come ok? If you like to meet with your friends then go and have fun outside. You know I’m still not proud of our place” said Tine
“yes P, I’ll keep that in mind. But I think I might have to stay at home for quite some time. I won’t be able to focus if I go outside and meet with my friends, I’ll only chat with them so I better stay here and continue doing my paper. I missed a week on doing it so I must really catch up” answered Phukong “ok, that’s better. If you get hungry call for an order and if something happens you have to make sure to call me or your brother. We’ll come even if we’re loaded with work so you must tell us directly if something happens ok?” he always nag early in the morning like this
“Tine, my brother is not a nursery child. He already knows what to do when something happens.  And besides  for sure he will hate it the most if you nag everytime getting so worked up about him. So it’s fine, he knows what to do incase” I calmed him down. He won’t stop talking if I won’t tell him too, that will only cause a fuss in between us. After breakfast, he drove me to work saying he’ll be the one to pick me up this time.  “are you sure that you’ll be the one to pick me up, it’s ok with me to pick you up” I was just worried “I’m ok, it’s ok. I want to see you after work rather than you seeing me after work first. Just let me be this once, it’s gonna be ok with me so just shut it and do well with work”
“yeah, you too do well with work and don’t hang around people not close to you that much, don’t get into trouble and stay safe” I said “it’s you who’s nagging a lot this time and not me. Do you even realize that? But anyways you too, do the same as what you told me. Call me when you get the time, inform me when anything happens with you ok? I’ll be worried if you won’t call he said”
Just as time passes, it’s time to get back to reality. It’s ok to dream for a while but we still need to wake up and get back to the real world. Sometimes it’s tough but it’s gonna be fine… we’ll get through it if we never give up. I believe in Tine and the trust we have for each other.  Just slowly, slowly and we’ll be there, just slowly and we’ll be where we are supposed to be..