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38 - Sarawat's POV

CHAPTER 38
Sarawat’s POV
“so? How do you plan to do it?” Man asked me when we arrived back at our place. “I want it to be special and perfect, since those two words remind me of Tine the most” “hey, I never thought you’d be this sweet. You were never like this with Pam in the past”. I don’t know why everytime someone talks about my past Pam gets brought up “it’s because there is a big difference between Pam and Tine. I think I just liked Pam before,  a simple normal crush. I didn’t see my future hanging out with her and I think that maybe I didn’t tell her anything was because of that. I couldn’t see a future with her, and If  I have told her how I’ve felt we might only end up losing our long lasting friendship. Unlike when I first laid my eyes on Tine, I saw a fastforward of my life. I saw myself settled with him, staying with him and being with him until our hair turns gray. That time I don’t even know his name or even the possibilty that we’ll ever meet again. So I decided to look for him, because a sudden thought came to me that I wouldn’t ever meet someone by chance and get to look at the future with that person”. And that all happened with Tine and not with Pam, for sure when Pam meets someone who’ll make her feel just like that. She will find the happiness she deserve, and that is not with me.
“you know what? Even Tine thought you’ll end up with her when we told him about how your story with Pam really started out. But maybe, not all your expectations come true, she was just meant to pass by your life for you to realize that there is someone out there who suits you better than she can. It could’ve hurt both of you pushed to be together when you were not the one who was destined to be together. I wonder where Pam is right now, after she talked to Tine that day, I haven’t seen her. And that was already years ago, do you think she’s already married or what?” Man asked “I don’t know, maybe she found the life she wanted with the person who suits her perfectly or she could be still searching for that kind of life with the person who deserves her but no matter what, I hope she is well and is doing just fine”. After all, no matter what had happened between us she is still and will always be a part of who I am. Maybe right now, she’s still in search of what she dreams of but I really hope that she is well and is doing fine. “you should contact her when you get married. Clear all the issues of the past, and officially wish each other well as you settle down with life. I am sure that after all this years, she’d want you to be happy, she will be shocked to find out that you’d be staying with Tine for the rest of your life but you know what? She’ll be happy for you and will wish you well as well.. contact her and catch up with her. She must miss you a lot by now, but catch up with her not as Sarawat from the past but Sarawat of the present who is engaged to Tine”

“hi babe, you’ve been gone from my side for just a day and I miss you a lot already”
“yeah, it’s very obvious. You sound like you couldn’t breathe at all? Do you want me to send you oxygen right there? Is Bangkok that polluted right now?”
“you can’t, I can only inhale the same air as yours”
“but you are. What’s the difference between the air in Phuket and the air in Bangkok? Aren’t you just silly and weird?”
“of course there is, there is no you in here.. I miss you already”
“don’t act like a kid and do your best to help Man. That’s why I left, to help them too. Me, being gone will be worthless if you disregard everything just because you miss me. If you want to see me already, then finish everything as fast as you can”
“hey, won’t you say that you miss me too? I called to hear you say it”
“will you not call again if I tell you that?”
“no, I will still call and nag you. But I can sleep better if you tell me you miss me too”
“I won’t say it, I am not as cringy as you are”
“oh common, if you won’t say it I will come there personally and here it from you”
“fine, fine, I miss you too. I did a lot today so I am so tired, I’ll go to bed now ok.. you should sleep too”
“ok, goodnight babe. I miss you so much”

I can finally sleep well tonight, I heard my boyfriend’s voice.. that’s all I  need to cure being lonely because I miss him. But all this is worth it, I mean if he didn’t leave to stay with P’Type then I wouldn’t be able to prepare for my surprise for him. I have to make everything special so that he would be moved. “hey, you’re smiling from ear to ear, I feel so jealous right now. The days that I can call my fiance is on schedule so I can’t talk to him everyday when I’m away. I feel jealous so can you just not call him and have me hear it everytime?” “sorry, can’t live like that. I’ve been with my boyfriend for quite some time so I got used to staying with him and hearing his voice. I can’t sleep if I won’t be able to hear his voice, it’s like a vitamin so let me be will you?” I teased him “hey! I’m really gonna tell Tine to not answer your calls if you keep on teasing me” “you won’t be able to do that. And besides Tine will miss me so for sure he’ll call me first”