Finally (Emison)

I need you

Emily's POV

I walk into the hospital again. One month, one month since the last time she opened her eyes. They already know me here.

"Hey sweetie, how are you doing?" Says the nurse i meet the first day.

"Fine, i came to see her" i say with a little smile.

"I came from her room, i changed the bandage. I think the doctor is gonna take off the stitches later" she says with a smile too. That makes me happy, the cut health in a good way.

"I'm glad about that" i say. She hugs me and give me a little smile.

"Have a good day Emily" she says going to another room.

She's old, with white hair and short. It makes me laugh the way she talks to me, calling me sweetie. I go to Ali's room, like i expected Jason is there. Now i'm gonna stay with her and he's gonna go to study.

"Oh, hey Em" he says grabbing his things.

"Hey" i say low.

"Wish me luck, i have exam tomorrow" he says excited and nervous .

"You'll do it great" i say.

He kisses Ali's forehead and then he goes out. I came directly here from school, i leave my things on the floor and i sit in the chair.

"Hey" i say to her. Her hair is longer, she looks so beautiful "I just came from school, it was boring without you" i say playing with her hair.

Everytime i walk in here i feel sad, but i also feel good, because i see her. Last month has been so weird, i barely do anything but come here and be with her. My mom came when i told her, she also came a few times to visit her.
I'm gonna do what i always do, i lie next to her. One time the nurse catch me because i fell asleep, but i kept doing it, It's the only way i have to feel better when i'm in here, i feel like i can protect her.

"Emily sweetheart" i hear a voice. Fuck, i fell asleep again. I open my eyes and i see Mrs D.

"Oh, H-hey" i say going out from the bed.

We sit the chairs, she's looking at her all the time. I remember one of the days a doctor walk in, Hanna Mrs D and i where here, and he said that nothing changed, that there were no good signals. I kept my tears but Mrs D couldn't. She started to cry so hard, Hanna and i tried to calm her but she couldn't. I remember looking at her, and then at Ali, all quiet and no making any move. That was a horrible day.

"How are you?" I ask her worried, she looks tired.

"I'm not gonna lie, I'm not okay" she says still looking at her.

"I know how you feel" i say looking at the ground. She grabs my hand and looks at me.

"You're so strong coming here everyday, thank you so much for take care of her" she says with tears in her eyes.

I don't say anything, i just can't. She looks at me with a smile and then she looks at Ali again.

"I remember when she told us she was dating you. It was the first time i saw her really happy" she says looking at her with a smile "I was so happy for her, i was so happy it was you Emily" now she's looking at me

"I love her" i say looking at her.

"I know you do" she says looking at her too "And she loves you"

"I know" i voice breaks. But i handle it to don't cry.

"Thank you for make my daughter happy, for everything you've done for her" she says with a tear going down her face "I hope she wokes up so you two can be together again"

"I hope so too" i say now with tears in my eyes.

She hugs me. And i grab Ali's hand.
We stay like that for a few minutes.

"How is Jason?" I ask breaking the hug. I'm worried about him.

"Well, he's broken, like all of us" she says with a sad face.

Mrs D had to go. She came to make a quick visit.

"Your mom was here" i say to her "She told me you were so happy when we started dating. I was so happy too, it was the best day of my life" i'm crying again, i can't control it.

It's been happening to me the whole month. I can be totally normal and happy talking with someone and i just think about her for a second and i start to cry. I keep crying, i learned that it's better to take everything from the inside and throw it all away than keep it inside. It slowly destroys you, if you want to cry it's better to cry till you can't anymore.

I'm still crying, I'm honestly losing all my hope. It really feels like she's not gonna wake up, never. It feels like i'm slowly losing her. Everyday a little piece of me breaks.

"Ali please..." i say between tears.

She's not moving, i need her to do something that tells me she's still there, that she can hear me, that's she's gonna wake up... but nothing happens.

I grab her hand again. I close my eyes and i see all the moments we spent together in my head. The day i meet her... i thought "she's gorgeous" in the moment i saw her. I remember how i falled for her more and more eveday, how i could stay looking at her blue eyes and her blonde hair all the time. I remember our first kiss, the library. The kissing rock, when we wrote that in there. Then i remember the day i discovered she was alive, that day changed my life. The day we found her, the day she came to Rosewood...
I remember when we kissed in the bathroom, i couldn't believe it really happened. When we started dating, the trip to California, the prom...

I open my eyes again to look at her. All the moments we shared...

"Ali, i'm not sure if you can hear me, but i want to say something" i take deep breath to say what i thought, i'm still crying "I'm sure you fought, i'm sure you tried but if you can't anymore, you can go. I'll be okay, you don't have to keep suffering. I want you to know that i love you so much, Alison you're my everything and i need you, but if you can't keep going with this, just go. Everything will be okay" i cry more, i won't be okay, never, but if she's suffering i prefer it in that way, i don't want her to suffer anymore.

I wait for an asnwer, but i get nothing.

"Ali please, i can't keep like this, i can't see you like this anymore" i say hiding my face in the sheets. I never cried in this way before.

I look at her again, but nothing, just nothing.

"Ali, i love-" i start but i immediately stop. I look at my hand, i'm holding hers. I think i felt her move.

I look at it, then it happens again. I see it this time. One of her fingers moves. I grab her hand harder, and all her fingers move grabbing mine.

"Ali?"