𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐋𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐖𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 || ᴇɴʜʏᴘᴇɴ - ʀᴀᴍʏᴇᴏɴᴢ

32 : feelings

- Hanee (you) pov -

Your eyes shoot open and quickly sat up. You groaned from the pain.

"Urgh" you hold your stomach.

"Noona, you're finally awake" Jungwon called you and hold your shoulder.

"Jungwon" you said, still holding to your stomach.

"Ugh it hurts" you said.

"Of course. They're were stitched" he said and you look at him, shocked.

"Wait here" he said and ran out. You look around.

'this isn't my room'

"You're in the guest room" you heard Jay's voice. You looked at the door and saw the 5 of them crowding at doorn.

"Why are yall crowding over there? There's so much space here" you joked and they run up to you.

"Noona i miss you" sunoo said and hugged you.

"Ah careful please" you said when he accidently pressed the wound.

"Oh sorry" he backed away.

"How long was i out?" you smiled.

"1 day and a half" Sunghoon replied, hands in his pocket. He doesn't look happy.

"And why do you look unhappy?" you asked him, weird about his reaction. He sighed and walked out of the room.

"What's wrong with him? and where's boss?" you looked around and noticed that Heeseung was not there.

"He's in his office. He spent a lot of time there ever since you were out" Niki said and sat down on the bad.

"Why did you do it Noona?" Sunoo asked.

You looked at them confused.

"Do what?" 

"You took sleeping pills" they said. Your smile fades. 

"How did you know about that?" you looked away. You didn't want to see their dissappointed faces.

"Heeseung hyung found it in your room. He seemed very upset" Jungwon said.

'fuck..'

You sighed and look down.

"Alright, she just woke up. Let's not pressure her with this. Out you go, kiddos" Jay said and pushed them out of his way. They sulk and walked out of the room.

"Eat. Get better and figure out a way to talk to boss" he gave you a bowl of porridge and a spoon.

"Thank you" you said. Your eyes were tearing up but you didn't let a single tear drop. You felt bad and guilty. After all the guys did to help, you 've disappointed them.

'you've done it Hanee. They're disappointed in you'

You eat the porridge with guilt. Every bite was like blades poking your throat. 

'im sorry'

"If you're sorry, tell them" Jay said. You look up to him with teary eyes.

'he could read minds?'

You nod, a drop of tear rolled down.

"You're a crybaby" he pat your head.

"It's just..hard for me to sleep after the nightmares. And it hurts to stay awake after getting traumatised by the same damn nightmare" you said and Jay look at you with a pitiful look.