Mina
Days had turned into weeks but still, Chaeyoung was nowhere to be found, Again. It's as if she suddenly vanished after that night which made devastated. She left once again but this time, she just left. She just left with nothing. She just left without even saying anything and that hurts me. It hurts me so much that I ended up locking myself in my room for days not even talking to anyone even to my daughter, Yuna.
I know I shouldn't be acting this way but her sudden absence didn't only made me devastated. It also made me lose all the hopes I have save for the both of us and all of a sudden, I wanted to give up.
I wanted to give up on her, on us and on myself.
I'm tired. I'm tired of living in these hopes. I'm tired of waiting for her and I'm slowly getting tired of loving her. Loving her has given me courage and strength all these past years but right now, loving her makes me feel exhausted. It's as if Loving her was now becoming an old habit, not a freewill. Now, It seems like an obligation that I must do, not a feeling that I wanted to.
I heard soft knocks on the door just as I'm about to close my eyes and sleep like I usually do when I feel so drained and burn-out.
"Mina? Hey, It's Somi.."
I stared at the door contemplating whether to open up and talk to her or still locked myself alone in my lonely room.
"Mina, I know you don't want anyone to talk to right now and I also know that I'm not the perfect person that you could talk to but please, talk to me. I know it hurts but please, let us help you. Mina, let me help you"
Somi's gentle voice was like a soft music that calms my ears. It comforts me like a blanket does and befire I realized it, I already opened my door and let her in before hugging her so tight. I buried my face and cried in her arms as hard as I can. She didn't stopped me from letting my emotions out and just let me until I feel better.
After few minutes of pouring my emotions out, she handed me a bottle of water which I didn't noticed she had earlier.
"Here, drink this."
"T-thanks"
After drinking the water and completely calming myself down, Somi handed me a paper bag. I curiously opened it and realized that it's a packed lunch.
"Your mom told me you've been skipping meals these days So I decided to make something for you. It's your favorite."
I looked at Somi once again and saw her nod while smiling so sweetly as if telling me to go and eat the food that she prepared for me. The aroma of the food made it's own way to my nostrils as soon as I opened the packed lunch and made me realize one thing- I'm starving.
I began digging in while Somi was making sure I'm eating properly. She's even randomly wiping the sides of my lips whenever I made a mess and of course, it's kind of making me feel adored. She even tied my hair into a bun as soon as she saw that some of my hair was getting into my way. Her sweet gestures reminds me of Chaeyoung but I chose to shrug those thoughts off and continued eating.
I finished everything in no time which made Somi smile and kiss my forehead. Of course, her actions made me feel so loved and I'm really loving it all. I ended up scooting closer to her and nested in her warm arms while she ran her fingers on my hair.
"Don't do this again, Mina."
My face automatically frowned after being clueless of what is she referring to.
"Do what?"
"Starving and exhausting yourself. I know you're hurting right now but that's not an excuse to starve and exhaust yourself. Don't treat yourself like that, Mina. You should love yourself at all times, at all situations and conditions"
"You know what, I really admire you and your words of wisdom, Somi. It's like a theraphy that heals my pain."
"Then let me heal you, Mina"
For a moment, I thought I misheard everything that she just told me so I asked her to say it again and surprisingly, she said the same thing that I heard.
"What do you mean by that, Somi?"
"Mina, I know that you belong to Chaeyoung and Chaeyoung belongs to you. You belong to each other but for now, let me heal you. Let me take all your pain away until the day you and Chaeyoung find each other once again."
"S-Somi, I don't understand. D-do you like me?"
"It doesn't matter anymore, Mina-"
"I said, Do you like me, Somi?"
"Yes, I do. I like you a lot, Mina."
"Ehh??"
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Short Ud
Goodnight everyone.
Stay safe okay? I love yawa all🥰🖤
