Mina
"Ahhh,God..that's it.."
"More?"
"Y-yeah, please.."
The sensation that chaeyoung's hands were currently giving me makes my body almost tremble in pleasure. Her hands that were touching my bare back makes me even warmer as her slippery hands travel on my skin.
"R-right there, baby.. ahhh.."
"Harder?"
"Y-yeah..mmm.."
Chaeyoung pressed my aching muscles in my lower back a little harder which once again made me moan. The way she's doing miracles on my aching body really made feel relaxed. It's been a long time since I last felt this way and Of coure, I'm grateful for Chaeyoung who insisted this.
"You shouldn't be overworking yourself, Mina. You're tiring yourself out too much lately and that's not good for you"
"I know but you should still get a rest"
"Yes, mom. I will."
Aftee few more minutes, Chaeyoung stopped and told me to rest and sleep. I'm a bit sleepy after the marvelous massage that her hands brought me but a part of me doesn't want to. I still want to spend the night with her talking about random things like we used to do so before could she tuck me in the bed, I stopped her midway and sat before smiling sweetly at her.
"Hey, what're you doing? I told you, you should get some rest and sleep"
"No, I don't want to."
"Mina—"
"What? Can't I really stay up a little bit longer? Baby, I still want late night talks with you"
"You should better sleep"
"Are you mad at me?"
Chaeyoung sighed before looking at me and smiled. I don't know why but she seemed tired and worn-out but at the same time, cold and fake. She even seemed to be timidly cold after our dinner with Somi earlier unlike these past few days where she's actually sweeter, caring and more active.
"Chaeyoung?"
"I'm just.. Maybe I'm just tired."
"Oh, I see. Okay, then let's call it a night and sleep. Come here—"
"I'm going home, Mina."
I astonishingly looked at Chaeyoung who's now avoiding every single gazes of my surprised orbs. Her sudden cold and un-understandable gestures were confusing me and at the same time, slowly annoying me.
"Chaeyoung—"
"Sleep now, Mina. I'll see you tommorrow—"
"Bullshit!"
Chaeyoungs eyes widened out of great surprise. I can't blame her for I, myself was so surprised as well for my sudden outburst but I can't help it. I can't help myself but to be mad at her right now.
"What is this once again, Chaeyoung? Why are you acting this way once again? Did I do something wrong? Did I say something that upsets you? What? Tell me!"
"You should rest now, Mina—"
"But how? How could I even rest when you've been acting this way again? Do you think I can even rest knowing you're being like this again? Fuck you, Chaeyoung!"
"I'm sorr—"
"Stop! Don't you dare apologize to me again, Chaeyoung."
"But Mina—
"Leave, Chaeyoung."
Her mouth fell wide open but out of frustration, I literally pushed her out of my bed and threw a pillow towards her.
"I said, leave—"
"Is there something going on between you and Somi?"
Her sudden question stunned me. Somehow, guilt came rushing into my being after that surprising question and I don't know why.
"Why does it feel like you guys are doing something behind my back? Mina—"
"I said,leave! You can leave now, Chaeyoung. You can once again do the thing you're best at which is leaving me. Go and don't bother coming back ever again!''
I don't know why did I said those stuffs but maybe I did that because I didn't know how to deal with her question for it's only making me guilty and I don't really know why.
"Don't you dare tell me that leaving you is the only best thing I can do. You didn't know what I've been through. You didn't know my pain and You didn't even know what painful choices were only left for me. I know I left you. I know I did but please don't make it look like I've done it just for fun because it is not, Mina."
Chaeyoung is now crying just like I am and seeing her this way slowly breaks my heart. I didn't mean to end this day like this but things were slowly crumbling apart just like we were.
"You know nothing about my pain as well, Chaeyoung! You didn't know how I went through every single night without you. You didn't know how I almost got insane while thinking my did we end up like that. Your actions, in yhe emd make me question my worth and even my existence. After painful years of longing for you, you didn't even bother checking me. My mind kept making excuses upon excuses on why aren't still showing up just to comfort my breaking heart. Sleepless nights, bloodshot eyes and nightmares. You know nothing, Chaeyoung unless your Somi."
"That's why I'm sorry, Mina.. "
"Sorry? Again? You keep saying sorry over and over again and it's like I'm tired of hearing you say that! God, You're really far different than how Somi is"
"Mina, I know my apologies weren't enough for you to forget all the pain that I've caused you but I'm trying my best. I'm really trying and all I ask is one last chance and a bit of your trust. I told you I'll make things right and I'll make you mine again,right? I'm serious about it. I really am So please, I'm begging you stop judging me according to what I've done before. Stop judging me because I am really trying so hard for you, for us.."
"Chaeyoung—"
"And please, stop comparing me with anyone, Mina. I know how fucked up I become but that didn't gave you the right to compare me with anyone."
Chaeyoung's voice were calm and gentle even when I was raising my voice against her. She did not only sound sincere, she also sounded like she's begging. She's begging and It really surprised me. She's not the type to beg for anyone anything except for the sake of my life like what happened few years ago in the hands of her cruel family—oh,may they rest in peace, by the way.
My heart slowly melt as soon as I see Chaeyoung trembling from too much crying and tension between us, maybe.
"Chaeyoung—"
"I'm really trying my best, Mina and I need you to trust me. I need you to trust me so that I can trust myself as well—"
"What do you mean? Don't you trust yourself? If so, why would I trust you when You can't even trust yourself? Are you really out of your mind or are you just manipulating me?"
"I am not manipulating you or anything, Mina. I'm just saying I can't trust myself alone so I need you to trust me so that I can trust myself again."
"I don't understand, why can't you even trust yourself—"
"Because If I do, I might end up killing myself too.."
Oh, God..
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