BREAKING BOUNDARIES (An RM Fan-fiction)

Chapter 31

SMUT ALERT! (21+)

The feeling is almost foreign yet so familiar. It's like I'm kissing him for the first time in my life and right at this moment, I don't want to stop. I would deal with any worries that come my way after all of this. Right now, I'm getting lost in this feeling. A feeling I haven't felt in a while.

We both pulled away from the kiss for a brief moment and locked eyes. We communicated without getting words out of our mouths. We smashed our lips into each other's, Namjoon pulling me by my waist closer to him. I put my hands behind his neck, deepening the kiss. His lips now feels really warm, making it feel as if it weren't on mine. I slightly opened my mouth and Namjoon took the opportunity to slide his tongue in my mouth, catching mine. That was all it took to get a moan out of me. I hate how my body is commanded by his, yet, I love to know that I respond to him this way. I've been trying to avoid the fact that I'm attracted to this guy and the fact that it's not just mere attraction, I really like him. He is breaking the walls that I've spent years building, am I ready to allow him?

I was thinking and unconsciously getting further with this makeout, not realizing how far we've gone, but my mind shut open to my surrounding when my feet were off of the ground. I involuntarily wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He broke the kiss to speak. We were now at the bottom of the staircase.

"We're gonna go to my bedroom." His voice was deep and dark. I was confused if I was hearing things in my head or if that's him speaking. Whoever it was got me so high that I was blank and couldn't utter a word.

Instead, I just nodded my head. I haven't felt like this in a while. I want to swear it's the wine in my head. That's how I've convinced my subconscious.

We reached the bedroom door and when we entered, he used his leg to kick it closed. The room was so dark, I could only see from light the moon shone through the curtain.

My back hit the cold mattress and Namjoon pulled away from me, moving further away. I was trying to adjust my eyes to the darkness but the lights flickered on. I started to get up from the bed but heard him speak up from where he stood.

"Stay there." I don't know what's with this voice, it commands my every movement and clearly my emotions too. It's turning me on so much I'm scared. Scared of the way I'm feeling, scared of the control it has over me. The last time I felt like this, I was trampled upon. But you know what's strange? I'm ready to risk it all over again.

I stayed exactly where I was and watched Namjoon take off his shirt, my mind is already going wild and I'm craving to touch him. As if he knows exactly what I'm thinking, he comes straight to the bed, slowly climbing on top of me, claiming my lips all over again. I hungrily kissed him back, running my hands on his upper body and slowly moving down to his abs and lower end of his torso. He broke our kiss and attacked my neck, making me wince in surprise. He stayed kissing that one spot I could feel bruise forming. He moved his lips slowly until he reached my cleavage, he looked at me one time and then lifted my sweater. He did it so swiftly I could've sworn he wasn't human.

He immediately went for my left breast, kissing my nipple through my lace bra making me gasp. He then moved and kissed his way down my stomach to the hem of my jeans. Without permission, he opened the button of my jeans, pulling it off my butt and down my legs. He stopped at my ankles to take my boots off too, it all really happened so quick.

Namjoon is now hovering over my almost naked body, this is the most naked I've been in front of a guy in years. I started to feel shy as his eyes roamed all over my body. He notices me turning my face away and held it, making eye contact with me.