Not a Dream | DNF

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I will add songs, idk why tho.
Recommended song^ Hearing | Sleeping at last

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Ok,ok... Hear me out. You know the feeling of not feeling. Like almost feeling empty and numb. Just because you are broken?! Or is it because you think that you have had enough of the same boring day, that turned from one day, to your whole life.

Well if you can relate to me then you are gonna like the quote. If u have no idea what it feels like than think about it.

At some point of the journey, we people call life, I felt too much so now I can't feel anything.

I just want you to think over it so you can understand my life and more importantly the story that I am about to share.
Some may not understand it and that's ok. I never thought anyone would even hear it but here I am about to share it with a lot of people.

Oh...wait. Did I even introduce myself? Of course I didn't. So hey, I am George Davidson and I am currently 16 years old and already...seeing the end of my days. So why not at least tell my story. Maybe it will help someone who feels the same way and can relate.
Where do I start from?

I guess it all started in 5 grade when I moved schools. I was small at the time and sure as hell scared.
But that didn't stop me from making 2 close friends. Of course close was  nowhere near the truth. For the first 2 years I struggled a lot and actually didn't communicate with no one in my school.
I am shy until we become close which ment that I am closed off and had no friends. Sitting through the lessons were a lot more boring than it should be.

Anyways finally 7 grade I made A friend. Singular...
My newly found  friend, Karl, helped me with stress and I was so excited to finally have someone to talk to.
I loved the silence . It's just that after 2 years you love to have a person you can talk to.We talked and did everything. If I could, I will turn back time to when we didn't have a care in the world.
Sadly tho that was the past and always be.

Than in 8th grade I met Alex or as we call him, Quackity. Karl and Quackity were already close friends so I was the new to there circle.
We were close but they didn't know about the shit I was going through. I don't blame them I don't want them to know even tho in the past I did.

When I was in one of my lowest points I vented to Karl. And I know what I am about to share will sound bad and make Karl feel guilt if he knew. When I told him everything he did what he was supposed to: be there for me.
But after I told him I felt so bad I thought it will feel good it did for a moment until I started to overthink as per usual.
I felt like a burden and let me be more clear I felt like I was the biggest burden on the planet. I felt worse the night and I cried and cried realizing and trying to think about what I had done. While doing so I felt so bad and couldn't take my mind of it so I started doing what I normally do  to cope.

A/N:no one reads this so yeah fuck it. I explained everything in the story description^