Not a Dream | DNF

16.

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Song recommendation: Everything works out in the end- Kodaine

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After a couple minutes of lying down on the ground I got up and decided to drown in a cup of alcohol. I got to the kitchen and decided to fill a cup with vodka and gulp it down. Getting drunk was easy especially when you are lightweight and have an empty stomach.

I kept drinking for an hour and clearly enough I was really drunk. I walked into the living room and kept bumping into people. I decided to dance and started doing so. Not long after I felt a presence behind me. And hands moved on my waist. I was too drunk to care who it was so I just danced with the person.

When I turned around I was met with an unfamiliar face.

"Hey beautiful, how about we go somewhere quiet?"

The guy said as he grabbed my wrist and started pulling me upstairs. He wad squeezing my wrist hard. When we got upstairs he pushed me against the wall and started kissing me. I immediately sobered up. And tried to push the guy away. He was stronger tho.

"STOP! GET OFF"

He kept kissing me as I struggled against him. He pushed me into a room and onto a bed. He used his hand so he can hold mine in place. Tears were streaming down my face. He started to kiss my neck. I screamed for help, at least I tried to but he placed a hand on my mouth.

"Open your mouth and you won't like what I do to you."

"Please don't do this."

I managed out. I froze and I couldn't move. I stopped struggling I just cried quietly. He lifted my shirt up and started kissing my stomach. Soon after he removed my shirt completely and started to touch me through my jeans.

I heard the door open and the next thing I knew the guy was ripped off me. I just cried and didn't open my eyes even for a second. I heard shouting which only made me even more scared. I was shaking to the bone. I felt myself start to hyperventilate. Fuck.

I tried to control my breathing by counting numbers. But that didn't help at all. I felt an arm touch my shoulder and I flinched. I was in deep shit.

"Hey George breath. Come on with me. It's just me Sapnap. Come on 123 in 456 hold 789 out."

After repeating it a few time i calmed down. I opened my eyes and saw Sapnap before me with a worried face.

"Hey, wanna talk about it?"

"It's my fault I shouldn't have danced with him"

"Hey no, that was not your fault. He was in the wrong George. He was about to rape you. I was looking for you here and Clay went to check downstairs. This piece of shit is gonna be out for a while."

I then realized my shirt was gone. It was on the floor i stood up and grabbed it. As I was about to put it on Sapnap asked me something.

"How long have you self harmed?"

"2 years. But listen what happened now is staying between us. You can't tell anyone. Not Clay, not anyone.Ok?"

He hesitated for a second bur then agreed. I wiped my eyes and made myself look presentable.

Nothing even happened. I wasn't raped or anything and besides I started it by dancing with this guy in the first place. I only have myself to blame for not pushing the guy away stronger and by starting it. He didn't do anything, only kissed me I jut overreacted.

I told myself that as me and Sap went downstairs and out the front door where Clay's car was.