Not a Dream | DNF

6.

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Song recommendation: YKWIM?-Yot Club

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I smiled at him with the most fake smile and said:

"Fuck off, go find someone else to piss on."

That only made him smile more.

"Ohhh a feisty one I see. My name is Clay, nice to meet you Georgie."

How much I want to wipe that smug smile off his face.I just turned back to my notebook and doing so I put my middle finger up. Making it look like i was scratching my head.

The rest of the class went normal. And once the bell rang I started to pack my stuff. I had math next but needed to find where it was. Just when I took out my phone to text Ranboo for help. I felt someone tap my shoulder. I turned around and saw Clay behind me.
Why the fuck is everyone so tall? He was about Ranboo's hight but still shorter.

"What do you want?"
I say with a voice that showed how annoyed I was.

"No need to be so mean. Nobody likes mean people, Georgie."

"Georgie?! Where the fuck did that come from? And go annoy someone else. I mean I am sure those girls over there would love for you to annoy them."

I said pointing to a group of girls that were basically ripping off Clay's clothes with their eyes.

"You see I would, but you seem far more fun. And also no need to be rued I just want to be friends."

Yeah sure "friends" more like fuck buddies. Why can he just leave me alone already.

"Ok well nice to meet you Clay but I have to go."

"What class do you have next?"

"Maths"

"Great, let's go. I am gonna give you a quick tour and then show you where your class is."

I agreed because then I would not get lost and can do it on my own not have to bother people.
He showed me around and then showed me to my classroom. The day went on smoothly after that. And the days kept going the same for a while go to school talk with Clay and Ranboo. Go back home. And that was it.

Clay still flirted with me and with time I started throwing back flirty remarks at him. He had no idea about my life tho. And after a while I gave up on trying to hide it.
After my classes he ran into me. I just ignored him and continued walking outside the school doors. He followed me like a lost puppy. I decided to check if there was something behind the school building luckily there was nothing and no one.

"Why are we behind the school building?"

Clay asked confused. I just stayed quiet and opened my backpack . I took out a lighter and a pack of cigarettes. I put one between my lips and offered Clay one. He immediately shook his head no. I took the lighter and lighted my cigarette. Inhaling a lot, I needed this to calm me down. That was my way to relax.

"You know this will kill you."

"I hope so"

When the words left my mouth I could see Clay tense up and drop his smile.

"What do you mean with that?"

He asked quieter than before.

"I ment what I said."
"Why? Why do you want to?"
"You know you are not the first to ask this. And my answer stays the same. Life. While a lot of people try to tell you things like:
Why would you want that? Life has so much to offer. There are so much things to live for.
The truth is that life is something that may give you everything or ignore you. For me life has nothing to offer. There was finally something I wanted to live for and life took it away like it always does. So why keep living when there is nothing or no one to keep living for."

I could see the words setting in him. I never opened up to someone after last time. But I didn't care anymore.