Not a Dream | DNF

15.

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Song recommendation: You're so Dark-Arctic Monkeys

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"Who are you?" She asked sassily.

"I am George and you must be Clay's sister."

"George, Clay doesn't shut up about you. It's like George smiled, George hugged me, George talked with me..."

Before she could continue she was stopped by a hand over her mouth. I looked up and met green eyes staring at me. I could see how flustered he was from what his sister had said.

"Eyyy, shut it. That is not true, i talk to you about Sapnap too"

They laughed about it about it a bit and then we decided it's time to go. Clay drove us to the party.

Once we entered the house I was met with loud music, drunk people and flashing lights.

"Hey, you came!"

The guy said walking towards Sapnap.

"Hell yeah I did. I also brought a friend he is super chill. I don't believe you have met so.. George, this is Punz and Punz this is George."

The blonde looked down at me and stretched his arm for a shake.

"Nice to meet you man, I hope you have a good time. I am gonna go back to Sam and the others now. We will see each other later."

He ran off and I saw that he passed a group of girls that were watching us. I realized they weren't watching US, they were watching Clay. That made my blood boil. I felt so jealous. We aren't even together. I reminded myself. But that didn't stop me from feeling really pissed. I needed alcohol in my system.

One of the girls came up to Clay and started to flirt. I couldn't stay there and watch them any longer. She was all over him, he was gonna flirt with her and I wasn't about to watch it.

I went to the kitchen. And saw a bottle of vodka that was already almost out. I grabbed it and gulped it down. It was enough for me to feel lightheaded. I didn't eat so it really got me.

I filled up a cup with what seemed to be vodka with cherry juice and headed to the garden. As I exited I saw the guy from earlier sitting on a blanket with a couple of people. He saw me and waved me over.

"Hey come here. We didn't have time to talk so come hang out with us."

"Sure"

I sat down next to a girl with brown long hair. She looked at me and introduced herself.

"Hi. I am Tina. Nice to meet you."
"I am George."
"Wait are you from England?"
"Yeah, I am from London"
"I have a couple of friends there."

In honesty she reminded me of Niki a bit. She looked really nice and sweet.

Next to her sat a girl with white and black split died hair.

"Hi I am Emma."

Next to her was sat a guy with curly black hair. 

"What up,baby." He chuckled by my reaction. He had the deepest voice I have heard in my life.

"I am Danial but friends call me Corpse."

Next in the circle was a girl with long, brown, curly hair.

"I am Hannah, nice to meet you."

Then a guy with a cap on.

"I am Sam"

And next to him was Punz. Their group looked cool. They seemed like chill people. I presented myself and we started chatting. About 10 minutes after that I gulped my cup and went to get more in the kitchen. There I saw Sapnap having a heated make out session with a girl. So I quickly refilled my cup and hurried out. I went out again but this time I sat alone  on the grass at the corner of the garden.

I pulled out my phone. I saw the last thing opened was my and Clay's dms. This immediately brought my mood down. He was probably making out with that girl from earlier. I had no chance Clay was as straight as one can get. He jokes with flirting with me and Sapnap all the time. But I cannot help but feel butterflies every time he does so. Why does it hurt so much to love someone. It hurts knowing that I will never have him.