I Never Left You

44. I will do anything

Ray's POV
I didn't know she always hang out at Kevin's restaurant. I was having an early breakfast when she walks in with Leah and Jenna. I knew Kevin had forgiven pink panther but not that they were together or friends with Azra and Leah.
My heart starts to race on seeing her, thank God she hasn't spotted me. I take deep breaths and stand up and start moving. My consciousness leaves me immediately on reaching their table. I find them looking at cake pics. "Did you guys invite this loser here?" Azra asks angrily. The trio looks at each other shaking their heads. "I invited myself and I really want to apologize. I have been the biggest fool and I regret it." I bubble out releasing the breathe I have been realizing. Gladly Leah's phone starts ringing . "It's a cake order, I forgot to finish, am next door in case you need me". She says and goes out taking the call on reaching the door. Jenna too excuses herself to go help out Kevin.
"Guess I have no choice" she says dryly.
"I really screwed up. I should.....  "Pwaaaaaa"  I stop mid sentence and feel part of her wrath. I probably deserved that slap. All eyes in the restaurant turn to us. "You think you screwed up" she shouts. "I think your a worthless piece of shit. So selfish that you don't  care anything about their own blood. If you didn't care about me at least you should have fought for your daughter. You didn't even bother to locate her" she stops and exhales deeply. "Am so sorry, it's just that my dad... "
"my dad nye nye, at your age you can't make decisions for yourself or at least defend how you feel. How long will people tell you what to do Raymond Fisher" she scolds and she has a strong point.
"I dont know how to make the right decisions Ra, so please forgive me . Am willing to do anything to earn your trust once more." I pathetically say my hand still soothing my cheek. I would do anything to see her less furious face. It hurts me to know that I always bring grief to her. "I don't need you anymore Ray. Am happy and comfortable the way I am." she says.
"At least let me see my daughter, please" then I will not trouble you again.
"I thought I was clear when I said she was adopted" she says looking down.
"That's a lie Ra" I retort back.
"Hey Ray, am Miria, We share the Cytology class. I was hoping that... " a girl I don't know happens to be passing our table starts to say something but is cut off by Azra too. "Stop hoping, can't you see he's busy!" Azra furiously barks at the girl and she continues her way."Where was I, yes. Your daughter was adopted so stop trying to find her"
"So why are you holding birthday cake saying happy 2nd birthday Christa?" I say and she looks at the cards in defeat. "I love you and Christa. So please don't kick me out of your lives. I promise you I wasn't going to marry Sasha that's why Kevin and I worked hard to make sure she confessed the her love infront of her dad. I didn't mean to hurt you. It's just that.... "I trail off to see if she's still listening.
"That what?"
"My dad asked me for a favor in a way I couldn't refuse. I was stuck between a rock and a hard place"
"So how did you manage to successfully get rid of her?" she inquires and I tell her everything that took place that night.
"I believe you. But I no longer believe in love. Love is just an illusion" she says.
"Really!" I say leaning closer with excitement "you believe me!!". I can't contain my happiness. I can deal with her wrath later, am just happy she believes that I didn't hurt her intentionally.
"Yaaa, I was at also at Dortmund restaurant that night and I saw everything" she says calmly.
"Does that mean am forgiven?" I look at her enthusiastically.
"Your invited to your daughter's birthday but not forgiven. Am sure you already know where I stay by now" with that she begins to pack her belongings ready to leave.
"Please don't go just yet" I grab both her hands." I will do anything to earn your forgiveness. Just name it". A smile curves up on her face.
"I will tell you when you come for the birthday. For now I want you to remove everything in the apartment that you slept on with that bitch" she says.
"I didn't sleep with her for your information". I say out loud. Everyone turns to look at us once more.
"I don't care, just remove anything she touched on then" she says, grabs her stuff and exits the restaurant leaving me astonished. "Does that mean she's considering moving in?" I ask myself.