CAELUM

CHAPTER 39

SUNDAY, 8:00 PM

SEHUN'S POV:

I see Seren sis sitting on the bench in the garden looking up at the stars. Thinking whether to do what I originally want to or go back to my room, something in me hesitates to do so. Breathing deeply, I make my way towards her. Slowly sitting next to her, I do what she's doing and that's looking up at the sky. A small smile spreads on my face because of the pleasant breeze that's caressing our faces. I hear a sudden little gasp. "Sehun?". "Yeah sis". She smiles. "The breeze is calming isn't it". She closes her eyes and enjoys the breeze. "Yeah, it is". "Hmm". I open my mouth just to close it again as hesitation takes over me. Noticing the hesitation she asks "Sehun, do you want to say something". She asks in a  soothing voice. "Aah, umm...".

 "Don't force yourself dear. If you want to say something and are not able to say, take your time hmm". Looking at me, she smiles softly. "Hmm". "Good. Then I'll get going. Good night Sehun". "Night Sis". She smiles and gets up from the bench. "Don't stay up for too long alright?". "Yeah". She smiles. "Good". Before she could go back in, I hold her hand. She looks and her eyes show nothing but softness. "I'm sorry sis". "For what Sehun?". She sits back on the bench and holds my hands caressing them gently. "For what I told back then. I'm really sorry, I didn't mean them at all... I don't why I let my anger control me... I –." Before I could complete my sentence, tears start cascading down my face and I hug her, tight. I'm so into holding my tears that I didn't realize when she wrapped her around me and started soothing me. 

"I'm here alright? I'm not going anywhere hmm...". "Hmm". She comes out of the hold and holds my face in her hands gently wiping my tears. "If you want to cry, then do it. Don't ever suppress is it hmm". "Hmm". I hug her again while she caresses my back gently. Her gentle movements of caressing calms me down, but still, I didn't let go of the hug. "S-Seren sis. I realised what you meant... now I actually feel guilty of saying all those to you... I'm really sorry. I really am. I'm sorry". I say them and nuzzle in her neck like kids do when they are sleepy or crying. "It's okay Sehun. It really is. To be frank I was at fault as well. This matter was concerned to you but instead of talking it out with you, I chose Siofra. My apologies". I calm down a bit. 

"No sis, you were just relieving your worries that's it. Siofra sis said that you tend to overthink a lot so maybe that's the reason you thought discussing it with an elder would have been a better option than directly telling me to leave them. I'm sorry I took it in the wrong way and even made Soo tell you the words he never meant. I really am sorry." She sighs. "It's fine Sehun. It really is.". "Really sis?". "Yeah... to be honest, what actually matters to me is you or anyone for that matter of concern understood what I meant or not. You got what I meant so yeah, all good. As for the fraught relationship between me and Soo... I'm sure things will work out. If not then let it be the way it is now. As long he's comfortable, I'll accept anything". She says which makes me smile sadly. 

"But if it becomes really bad than it is". She comes out of the hug and looks up smiling softly. "If that happens and leads to our separation, at least we would not end up regretting that we didn't try to make the relationship better. Not everything that starts well ends well. Thinking in an optimistic way might even bring us closer than we were. In all ways. Emotionally, mentally, verbally, physically. So yeah, the end is unpredictable and thinking about it will just cause pain and demotivation. Just keep trying. And accept what comes in the way. That includes both wins and defeat". I nod softly. "I missed you Seren sis... you know when you went to York for work, I thought you were running away from the mess you created but when Siofra Sis told the actual reason, I felt so guilty". 

She giggles maybe because she sensed my pouty face. "Really? That's fine. Now that things are sorted out, let's make sure that we look both the ways, okay?". I nod obediently. "Okayyyyyyyy". She laughs and I did miss her laugh. I hug her tightly as possible. "I'm so happy you came.... Yayyyyyy". "I'm happy as well.... It's late, go sleep. Zyanya must be waiting for you". I pout. "I don't want to go". "Hmm... not even when I say, baby". *Oh no.... *. Looking up I find Zyanya smiling. *Thank you, baby, for being my support when I felt weak*. "So, answer my Lil bro". I break the hug slowly and say "Of course not, how could I not cuddle with my wife after having a tiring day. No way am I letting it go". Seren sis and Zyanya both started laughing. "How cute is my husband hmm". Great... I'm done with her and she calling me cute.