I'm Your Cure (SMHG SEQUEL)

Chapter 10

Luke's POV
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I couldn't believe what was happening.

She wasn't dead, but she could never wake up again...

I knew we ended what we had and she chose Ashton, but that doesn't mean I would ever stop loving her.

I still had feelings for her and one day I hoped to win her back, but now there could be a chance that will never happen.

I couldn't let that happen.

I had promised to protect her.

I promised to protect all of them.

She trusted me and I failed her.

I felt the gaping hole in my heart growing and I couldn't stand it.

"James can I talk to you for a minute?" I asked as James nodded in response.

I walked away and motioned for him to follow as we went to the waiting room.

"James..did she tell you anything? Did be talk to you before any of this happened?" I asked.

He shook his head, "no, we had a night together and we watched movies, but then I left and then this all happened."

I nodded and felt myself wanting to cry with the reoccurring thought popping into my head.

I failed her.

"Luke, I know what you're thinking and it's not your fault." He said to me.

I shook my head no, "that's not even a handful of what I'm thinking."

"Then what are you thinking?" He asked.

"I failed her. She made me promise I would protect them. Now Ashton is heartbroken, Calum and Michael are upset, and we are in the media spotlight right now because people think we are cancelling the show and people are not happy we are here. We have only a week and I don't think she's going to wake up in just a week. When me and her went out I promised I would do anything to protect her and now look at what happened...She is hurt, she may never wake up, and I now hate myself."

"Luke, you promised these things when you went out. You promised her a lot of stuff that you never stayed truthful to." He rebuttled.

I clenched my jaw.

He did not just say that.

"Really, okay because imagine when they finally tell us that she isn't going to wake up...Are you going to be the asshole that pulls her plug? Am I? Is Ashton? Is Lauren? There are a lot of things you haven't stayed faithful to either. You can't judge me for who I was...judge me for who I am. I would take a bullet for her because I still love her!"

He looked at me like I just confessed I was attracted to goats or something.

"You're what?" He asked after moments of silence.

"I'm in love with her. I am in love with Sam. I always have been and always will be James. If anyone knows what that's like, it should be you who understands." I said taking a shot.

He looked at the floor and then back at me, "you know, now isn't the time to be admitting stuff like that Luke. You could crush Ashton, you could split your band apart, you could only end up hurting yourself and her in the end..I do know how that feels and I'm here to tell you from experience that it sucks when she dates and loves other guys that you know and respect, but you just have to put on a smile and carry on." He said and turned on his heel and walked away.

I sighed and walked out to the parking lot and called someone I hadn't talked to in a long time.

The phone rang three times before I got an answer, "hello?"

"Hi, Lauren? It's Luke..." I said awkwardly.

"Hi Luke. To what do I owe the pleasure?"

"I just- I don't know anymore. I know we haven't talked in forever, but you were always someone who was good with advice and understood everything..." I rambled.

"What's wrong?" She responded.

"You know about Sam right?" I asked.

She sighed, "I do. And you still love her don't you?"

I ran a hand through my hair, "yeah..."

"Luke, I can tell you this...when she lost you she was absolutely devastated and was extremely depressed and then she found Ashton and she found her old self again. She will always love you, no matter what she says. She also loves Ashton. And I know it seems harsh but you need to love her and you need to love her and Ashton together. He makes her happy. I mean he flew out here to see her and I know you did too but that's different. You'll always be there for her, but she needs you now more than ever okay?"

"Alright. Thanks Lauren...I just wish it would've been me you know? I wish it were me and not him I wish it were me in  accident and not her, but life seems to have it out for us and it's not fair." I said hurting.

"I know, but life isn't fair. It happens to the best of us even though we don't deserve it. Be her protector,be her best friend, be her shoulder to cry on, but most important be you okay? She loves Lucas Robert Hemmings not just Luke Hemmings from that Australian band. Be you...and you'll be saving her in a way you may not understand now, but will later."

Talking to her made me feel better, it always did when I needed serious advice.

"Thank you Lauren, I need to go ponder the meaning of life and why I'm such an idiot."

She chuckled softly, "Alright, ponder away. Bye Luke."

"Bye." I said and hung up.

I sighed and layed out on the concrete sidewalk and closed my eyes as the sun shone down.

I heard footsteps, a door close, and someone sit next to me.

"Look at us now....What are we coming to?" Calum asked.

"I hate myself...Ashton is heartbroken, Michael is probably contemplating his next hair color, and you're sitting on the sidewalk next to a laying down, heartbroken, love sick, blonde kid."

"We're such a hardcore band aren't we?" He smiled as I opened my eyes and smiled.

"For sure." I responded smiling as I sat up.

We sat in silence, but I knew Calum understood everything I was thinking and he knew I still loved her.

It made me happy it was him who came to join my sidewalk grieving because if it were anyone else I don't think I could say this much without saying any words at all.