I'm Your Cure (SMHG SEQUEL)

Chapter 26

I woke up with extreme head pain and back in the hospital, the one place I didn't want to be.

I felt the nubbins for the oxygen tube in my nose as I looked around and saw James sitting in the corner.

He looked up and must have saw my eyes on him as he smiled sadly and came over to me, "Hey gorgeous...how are you feeling?"

"My head hurts..." I whispered.

"Do you want me to get a nurse?" He asked looking at the door.

I placed my frozen hand on top of his and smiled softly as I whispered, "I'll be okay..."

He placed a soft kiss on my hand, "You worry me so much, it's amazing I don't have grey hair."

I smiled, "James..."

"Yes?" He asked.

"Before I passed out I was having vivid...dreams almost, they seemed like memories but I don't remember them and the 'he' I keep dreaming about I can't figure out who it is but I did notice something."

"What did you notice...?" He asked worried as he came closer to me almost anxious for my answer.

"I noticed the smell of Ashton's shirt."

"Do you think Ashton could be this guy you're dreaming about?" James asked.

I felt like I was going to cry suddenly but spoke anyway, "I don't know. I don't know. And I don't know why I don't know."

He pulled me into a soft hug and held me as I felt tears pour over and onto his shoulder.

"It's okay...you just need time." He soothed.

I was too worked up to be soothed right now, "But I don't want time. I want to know. I want to be able to know what these dreams are, I want to know why I am dreaming while I'm awake what seem to be memories that I don't remember. I'm frustrated and tired and guilty." I cried, holding him.

"Why are you guilty love?" He asked me.

"I have a boyfriend, I am in a relationship and here I am thinking I could be dreaming about his band mate. I haven't told Luke, I feel extremely guilty and it hurts. It hurts I can't tell him this and it hurts that I don't know how to or why this is even happening."

He pulled away from me and took my hands in his, "Why don't you just talk to Luke? Or maybe to Ashton?"

I shook my head, "It's not that simple."

"I know it'll be hard, but if you want to know then you have to be able to talk to them." He advised.

I took my hands out of his and wiped my tears, "Who do you think I should talk to?"

"I think if I were you I'd talk to Luke first. He's your...boyfriend and if he cares enough about you he'll tell you the truth." He said looking to my hands and then to me.

I looked down and saw it wasn't my hands he was actually looking at...it was my scars.

I uncomfortably put my arms under the blankets so he couldn't see them and then nodded.

"I'll go get him okay?" He said standing up.

I nodded once again silently as he walked to the door and opened it.

"James?" I said right before he walked out.

"Yes?" He asked.

"Thank you...for everything." I said feeling like crying again.

He smiled, "Don't sweat it, I'd do absolutely anything for you."

I felt my heart flutter as he kept his smile and walked out.