Within The Shadows.✅ (WLW)

11 | Whine

"I want food," I whine to Ava.

"You just ate ice cream." She says smiling down at me. "But I want nuggets. I look at her with puppy dog eyes.

"Oh no not those puppy-dog eyes. If I could get you nuggets, I would but it's 3 in the morning, Lennie." I just stare at her.

"You are really pretty," I say touching her face. "Okay, it's time for bed." She says, but I stay lying with my head in her lap.

"But I don't want to go to sleep yet" I whine. God, I sound like a 10-year-old. "Come on let's get you to bed." She stands up and helps me up.

"WAIT!" I just realized something. "God, no need to shout my ear off. I'm right next to you." Okay so maybe I shouldn't have shouted with my mouth almost in Ava's ear.

"Where is Anna?" I look around my apartment, not that I can see much. God, can the room stop spinning?

"She went home remember." She says while still helping me to my room.

"OH, yah Smith came to get her...or was it, Scott?" Not that it matters, I wouldn't get to know the guy. Let's just say Anna enjoys having fun in the bedroom.

I'm lying in my bed; Ava is in the bathroom. I didn't know she was finished until she spoke. "I'm going to take the couch."

"Noooooo, please stay with me," I say looking at her. Pleading. "Lennie, you're drunk. When you wake up tomorrow you aren't going to be happy if I sleep in your bed tonight." Okay maybe she has a point, but it doesn't matter right now.

"Drunk or not. I want you to sleep with me tonight." I say sitting upright, folding my arms over my chest. Then I realized I wasn't wearing a bra.

"Fine." She says walking up to me and climbing into bed next to me.

"I didn't tell you the truth," I say suddenly a couple of minutes later. She turns around to face me. "What?" she says frowning at me.

"You ask me when the last time was, I had sex. I lied I didn't have sex last week, God the last time I had sex was high school." I say while staring at the ceiling of my bedroom.

After a while of silence, I turn around to face Ava to see she is just staring at me.

Just staring at each other, I study her features. From her golden-brown eyes to her perfectly kissable lips.

God, I want to kiss her. I move a bit closer, and she looks at my lips and then up at my eyes again. I noticed she also moved closer.

Our lips were so close, I just had to move a centimetre and our lips would touch. But before our lips would touch,

"Mel, I can't. You are getting married, and you are drunk. I'm not going to take advantage of you when you are not in the right mind." She says while moving away.

I just stare at her shocked. What? Why doesn't she want to kiss me?

"It's not that I don't want to kiss you. Believe me. But I just can't, it isn't right." She speaks. Wait did she just read my mind?

Feeling a bit sad, I stand up and walk to the bathroom. Looking at myself, I no wonder she didn't want to kiss me.

I look like shit; My hair is in a messy bun, but my hair is starting to fall out. My makeup is smudged, and it looks like I haven't slept in a week.

After I'm over myself, I see the bed is empty. Not bothered to go see if she is on the couch or not. I lay in bed.

Grabbing my earphones and listening to music. Music has always been my escape when I felt like I was going to overthink a situation and I was going to overthink what just happened.

Clothing my eyes, getting lost in the melody and lyrics of the song. I started to drift off to sleep.