Within The Shadows.✅ (WLW)

12 | Ava

"I want food," Mel whines.

"You just ate ice cream." I try to reason with her. "But I want nuggets." She says while giving me those damn puppy-dog eyes.

"Oh no not those puppy-dog eyes. If I could get you nuggets, I would but it's 3 in the morning, Lennie." There is no way I could give her nuggets. No fast food restaurant is still open.

"You are really pretty." She says touching my face. She used to do that a lot. Just touching my face, like she was trying to memorize every detail of it.

"Okay, it's time for bed," I say, hoping she would get up from lying on my lap.

"But I don't want to go to sleep yet" God why does she have to be so fucking cute? "Come on let's get you to bed." I lift her head, standing up to help her up.

"WAIT!" She shouts out of the blue "God, no need to shout my ear off. I'm right next to you." I think I'm deaf now.

"Where is Anna?" She asked looking around the room like she was looking for her.

"She went home remember," I tell her while helping her to her room. I'm so glad I didn't drink tonight, otherwise, I couldn't help her at all. And I probably would be this contained.

"OH, yah Smith came to get her...or was it, Scott?" To be honest, I can't remember, the only thing I do remember is Mel telling me Anna has a different 'partner' every week.

Mel was lying on the bed just staring at her ceiling, I don't think she noticed I was out of the bathroom.

After a couple of minutes, I decided to say "I'm going to take the couch."

"Noooooo, please stay with me," She pleads with me. But I can't, it's just a bad idea.

"Lennie, you're drunk. When you wake up tomorrow you aren't going to be happy if I sleep in your bed tonight." I know I'm right, and I just got her back. Even though she is getting married to an asshole, I can't lose her.

"Drunk or not. I want you to sleep with me tonight." She argues sitting upright, folding my arms over her chest. Fuck why isn't she wearing a bra? Maybe I can just lay with her until she falls asleep and then slip out to the couch.

Saying fine, I clime in next to her.

"I didn't tell you the truth." She says suddenly a couple of minutes later. I turn around to face her. "What," I say, what is she talking about?

"You ask me when the last time was, I had sex. I lied I didn't have sex last week, God the last time I had sex was high school." She says while staring at the ceiling of her bedroom.

Wait a minute. I was the last one she had sex with and that was 5 years ago. And here I am jumping into bed with every second woman I find attractive.

So, in thought, I didn't notice Mel turning to look at me. Until I notice her moving closer.

Moving her eyes all over my face, I notice her eyes locking on my lips. I find my locking at hers.

God, I want to kiss her. I move a bit closer.

Our lips were so close, one of us just must move a centimetre and our lips would touch. But before our lips would touch,

"Mel, I can't. You are getting married, and you are drunk. I'm not going to take advantage of you when you are not in the right mind." I say, moving away. I can see the hurt crossing her face, but I can't. Not like this, no matter how badly I want to.

"Why doesn't she want to kiss me?" I hear her say quickly to herself.

"It's not that I don't want to kiss you. Believe me. But I just can't, it isn't right." I try to reassure her.

Without saying a word, she stands up and walks to the bathroom.

Feeling like I need to leave her alone for a while, I take this opportunity to head to the couch. Hoping she wouldn't come looking for me.

Realizing she hasn't. I try to feel relieved because I know what I did was the best decision, but I miss just kissing her whenever I can.

I still don't know the reason why she broke up with me. I just know no girl has ever come even close to her.