Can I Keep You? [Zarry] *EDITING*

Chapter 10

[ Zayn ]

*Flashback*

 

Aaggh! I woke up at the pain that shot through from my behind when I moved from my sleep. Holy shit! What was that? Why is my body in pain, like I was being beaten by 10 people?

Looking at the clock, it says 6am. I slowly and gently turned to my side and the loudest gasp escaped my mouth. Not just because of the unbearable pain that I felt, but because of the person who is lying beside me and sleeping peacefully.

"Harry?" my voice croaked. What is he doing here, sleeping beside me?

I stared at his sleeping figure. His hair is sticking to every direction and his mouth, slightly parted. His breathing is calm and he looks like a child. My gaze travel down on his toned chest. It has some scratch mark on it. I, then notice a reddish mark on his neck. Is that a hickey? What the f---

My gaze went lower and...... Holy fuck! I jumped out of the bed, my eyes wide. Why in the hell is Harry naked?! Does it mean we.....? No. No. NO! I slowly looked down and found myself naked too. Oh God.

I shut my eyes and tried to remember everything. It all came flashing back in my mind and I had to leaned back at the wall to support myself. I think I'm going to faint. Harry and I just had........ Oh dear Batman!

So that explains why my fucking behind is hurting like shit.

Why did I let it happen?! I'm not gay for pete's sake! Am I?

Closing my eyes again, I felt dizzy.

Oh yes Harreh! Yes, that! Do it again... Faster please.. Oohhh.." Harry moved faster above me, sweat dripping on our bodies. I reached for his neck and lower his head down. I captured his lips hungrily, and he kissed me back with full of passion.

My eyes fluttered open. "Nooooo!" I shook my head furiously, trying to erase the erotic scene that I'd just remember. What have I done??

I quickly went to the bathroom, ignoring the pain I'm feeling and took a quick cold shower. When I'm finished, I went back to room quietly, and rummage to my closet and get change. I need to be away from here, from Harry. I need to be alone. To think.

Without a word, and without waking him up, I quickly leave the house. Sorry Harry...

I wonder what Curly boy is doing now. How is he? I felt bad for leaving him that day and I know he'd never forgive me. I know he's also worried about me. He never stop calling me everyday but I never answered. Not even once. I just change my number. Harry is a great guy and he doesn't deserve a guy like me. I'm not ready to have a relationship with a guy.

"A penny for your thoughts?"

I snapped out of my drama when Dana spoke. "Nothing. I'm just feeling tired." I lied, forcing a smile on my face.

She smiled back. "If that's the case, let's go back to our room. I'll give you a massage."

"Hmm..sounds great. Let's go.." I twined our fingers together and walked back to the beachfront hotel that we're staying. This is our 2nd day here. We'll be staying here for one week because Dana got her vacation from work. A perfect time to spend some time with her.

When I left Harry on my house one year ago, I stayed at a friend's house for 3 days. I know Harry will look for me, knowing his persistent, he'd never give up so I avoided him on purpose. I don't know how to face him after what happen. He said before that after New Year, he would go back to England. And from then, I never got a chance to see him again. Honestly, if I had a chance, I would say sorry to him. I felt guilty and bad for a few months, thinking how Harry might be devastated. But it all melt away as soon as I received a call from Dana. She was crying and she said that she and Luke is already divorced. From what she said, they were incompatible. She asked if I could still accept her as my friend. Well fuck yes! I went to New York to see her and be with her. We became friends again, doing the things we like to do, just like before. And just last month, I asked her again to be my girlfriend and she said yes. Finally.

"This beach is heaven! And spending it with you makes it more special." Dana smiled, looking up at me. I can still see a hint of sadness in her eyes and it's because of Luke. She's still hurting. I leaned down and pressed a kiss on her nose. She's really beautiful.

And she's my dream.

or not?