child hood bestfriends

Part 24 - realisation

Noah's pov: 
"Good morning beautiful girl" I said softly, kissing Dixie's head. I had been awake for about 2 hours now, but I didn't want to wake Dixie up, as she probably had a long night. We had to go back to the hospital soon as well, so I wanted her to be in normality for as long as possible "we have to go back soon Noah. We should probably get up...." "I was kind of hoping you wouldn't remember that...." I said letting off a small chuckle, and kissing her forehead "I really don't mind that much. It kinda feels weird being here. But it's nice, I just think I need to be at the hospital" "Dixie what's wrong. You were so excited to be at home yesterday, and now you are saying you don't like it!?" "Noah. I don't know how to else to say it... I need to be at the hospital, sooner rather than later...." As she said that she got up and walked away to get ready for the day. I knew what she meant. She's gonna die. I didn't want to admit it but I have to, especially now that She has herself. But its a big thing... admitting to the fact that your best friend, or your girlfriend is going to die. Sadly for me she is both, well not sadly, but.... You know. "Noah? Are you okay?" Size said walking up to me, followed by covering my lips with her mint flavoured ones. I kissed back. Of course. "I love you so so so much." I said pausing to kiss her "I really don't tell you enough" noah I promise you. You do tell me enough, in fact you tell me it so much, that I can't remember a time when you didn't say that." She said placing her forehead against mine. "I don't want to lose you Dixie, I wouldn't be able to cope. You don't understand how much pain I would be in" "Noah. Listen to me. Its not like I want to die, I am trying just as hard as you to stay alive, but it's 100x harder for me, and I know it's going to end soon. My life. But you are the only one who isn't an absolute shit head, and didn't leave me in the hospital instead of going to LA. They just aren't going to see me in my normal form before I die, but you are, cause your the only one who actually cares about me! and it's scary to admit. But it's also the Truth, and I can only tell the truth, or at least I only want to tell the truth, but it's getting increasingly harder" she said tears slowly dropping down her face "Dixie I love you with all my hear, and if I could take all this pain away and put it on me I would, honestly I would"  "I love you too...."  "Well how about we just skip going back to the hospital, just today. Please..?" "Okay, fine but we have to go back straight after" she said sitting on my lap and kissing my forehead "I love you sweetie. Now go get ready for the beach, I'll be with you in 10 minutes" "okay" she paused to kiss me softly on the lips "I love you" she said getting up and walking to my closet. I had enough of her clothes here to last her at least a month, so she knew she would definitely find an outfit.

30 minutes later:
We had already left for the beach now, and Dixie looked heavenly. I was just wearing plain black boxers, and she was wearing an orange and black bikini, and had chosen a wig with plaits into bunches. She really did look good. "God baby, have I mentioned how gorgeous you look today" I told her resting my left hand on her thigh, as she was driving. "Yea, you have" she said turning to face me with a grin on her face "but I don't think I'm gonna take my shirt off" "What! Why?!" I said, genuinely confused by her previous statement. "Noah, you can't seriously be shocked" she said looking at me "I have this stupid cannula in my hip, it's the most embarrassing thing ever!, and I can't take it out cause I have to refill my medicine 7 times in the next 3 hours, Noah you don't know what it's like, I'm gonna be so embarrassed. Especially if I see someone I know!" "Dixie baby, calm down. No one will find it funny or weird , and your not going to see someone you know, it's a school day remember. The chances of you seeing someone our age is practically zero, and anyway, we're meeting Curtis there, and he 100% won't let anyone make fun of you, surely you know that" I said chuckling "wait what! Curtis is coming!?" She said looking at me "woaaahhhh, Dixie keep your eyes on the road. But yeah Curtis will be there, in fact he is probably there now" I said checking my phone to be faced with a message from Curtis saying he was there with Chloe "yea. They are there now, and we will be there in like 3 minutes. So baby don't worry yeah" I said turning her head to mine and kissing her quickly, as we were still on the road "I love you noah" she said softly, smiling "I love you a million times more beautiful "it always has to be a competition doesn't it" she said looking at me and giggling. Oh my god, the fact i am going to have to live. Without that giggle. "Okay. We are here" she said before we got out of the car and walked over to Chloe and Curtis. "How come clay didn't come" I said chuckling and rolling my eyes. That was very much SARASTIC. "Oh he was too busy being an annoying little shit he-" "hey don't be mean" "hey says you, calling my mom and dad shit heads this morning" "Dix! Why did you call them shit heads!? You like never swear!" "In fairness, it was well deserved" "hey and you didn't give context, and you didn't say that I called my whole family that too" "yeah, I'm sorry." "Oh my god, can someone just tell us why Dixie said that" Chloe said, intrigued and slightly frustrated by our conversation "oh yeah, so basically, dixie managed to get away from the hospital for a day, and I have told you both about that already." I said to Chloe and Curtis as dixie went to the restroom "and dixie said that she wanted to go home and go to the beach with our families. And so we did, except we didn't go to the beach because neither mine or Dixie's parents were at home, and neither were charli, Tatum or Haley. So I rang my mom, and she told me that they all went to LA, because charli was 'sad that dixie had cancer'. Like they weren't even going to tell us they left, they were just going to hope we never found out" I said fuming once again after telling the story "oh shit!" Chloe said with a disgusted look spread across her face "that is fucking messed up! Those asses!" "Yea. Well me and six have just been ignoring them. I have at least 300 missed calls and messages and Dixie has more no doubt" "yea that's good though, they in no world, deserve to talk to you after that. How long are they there for?" Chloe said, Curtis still in . "A week." I said as Dixie walked up to me wiping her hands on my shirt" "oi!" I said laughing "sorry" she said laughing as well "okay well let's go" Curtis said as we all walked over to the actual beach.