Goodbye | EreMika

Chapter 19

Eren's Point of view

"Where's Mikasa?"

They all looked at me, shocked. We panicked and looked for her. We went to different directions to find her.

Armin and me went east. Annie, Bertholdt, Reiner went south. Jean and Marco went west. Sasha and Connie went to get help along with Ymir and Historia.

We searched for minutes and yet still no sign of her. The sun has already settled. We decided to call Levi for help. He freaked out and said he'll be on the way.

"Eren it's late we should go back." Armin suggested. I didn't want to go back I wanted to keep looking for her.

"No you go, I want to keep searching."

"Eren please." He begged but I still didn't want to go.

"I can't! I don't want to go back! Not unless she's with me!" I cried. He looked at me with pity eyes. He gave in and stayed.

"Okay then but we should split up so it's easier."

"Yeah okay."

We went on our own ways to look for Mikasa.

Mikasa's Point of view.

Trigger Warning:
For those who have suicidal issues. Please freely skip this part if you'd want to.

What a shame. We're about to leave. I wanna stay here... with Eren. His operation is near. And there's a chance he'll die. I want to spend my time with him just in case. I want to tell him... but I'm scared. Well duh you're stupid after all. What kind of person are you when you can't even confess a feeling... shut up. Why would I? You can't controll me. And you never will. Just give up and finish it all. It's what you want after all? You're wrong! I want to live... 'I want to live' ? Dear my, we both know that's a lie. A lie you've created. Oh here you are again, turning little things into a big deal. Me? Oh there's no me it's us. We both do this to us. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of you... I-I'm tired of me... Yes that's right.

I zoned out. The next thing I know I was at the edge of the cliff. The sun has settled.

"When did I get here?"

Do it!

"Do what?"

Jump!

"What?"

Jump! Come on we've talked about this. We'll die right? If you die I die. You won't have to deal with me. It's a win-win. And we'll see them... we'll be reunited again.

Yeah I should...jump.

I took one more step. Dirt fell from off the cliff. I looked down and saw the sharp rocks. A smile grew across my face.