Please, Kill Me (Jeff the Killer x Reader)

Proluge✓

It's been a year since you feel so broken inside, maybe it has something to do with the people who surround you, your experience with them who makes you the person you are now, cold and destroyed. As you sat down in your chair staring blankly at the piece of paper on the table, old memories that you wished to forget came back to your mind, unconsciously.

She used to be a positive kid, always smiling, joyful and kind to anyone, but as the day went by, she now realizes that it's all nonsense cuz in the end they do not fvcking care about the things you do.

They will just use your kindness for their own sake. They always take advantage of you. No matter how hard it is, she still keeps moving forward while placing her hands to cover her ears and ignore those words that want to pull her down to the void.

Make us proud

...are the words that only she holds to keep on going. Taking a step forward through the stairs to reach the unknown that she believes that'll help her to make other people see her as her, a worthy human being, but is it worth it?

No. Because soon as she reaches the top, no one's going to believe her nor wants to know that she did it by herself and they will encourage her to climb even more until she wears out and falls on the stairs and ends up being a laughing stock of the crowd "She couldn't even do it, what a shame". Being worthy enough is the thing that she wants to feel, to be accepted but why does it feel like she will never make it and will never make them feel proud of her?

Reminiscing about the bittersweet past of her life staring at the empty wall in front of her she suddenly got snap back to reality as soon her phone rings for a message. The name Dr. Caitlyn shows up.

She sighed while massaging her temples and ignored the Doctor. She turned her gaze outside the window in her left side of her apartment, seeing a group of birds flying peacefully above the sky and wondering how amazing it would be if she could fly.

Thinking that this is a good spot to jump from a third building floor of this apartment complex but as much as she wants that, there is something that is holding her back. Maybe the burden that she will cost to her family, their tears to her funeral, or maybe the guilt? Besides, no matter what the reason is, her mind keeps reminding her that there is a right time for that and she knows it...

Y/N stands up from her seat and walks towards the window. She opened it and looked down below. The cold wind of the night makes her (length) (color) hair dances along the wind. Her face clearly shows how tired and exhausted she is from everything she went through. She blankly stares at the parking lot below her that not knowing what she will do next, will she choose to jump and finish it all at once? If she did, will she get what she wanted?

Will she be free from burden? Or it Just going to get worse?

"I'm tired of trying, it's.. not even worth it anymore, right?" (Y/N) mumbled to herself. She carries a lot of loads ever since she got exposed to the brutality of what we called reality, of course, no one sees it or rather no one dared to look at it.

No one cares about what she feels, "It was just a stupid act to get attention from the others" that's what they always say. She'll make a good actress because of it, funny isn't it?

Behind those fake smiles she used in front of everybody just to not let them think she's weak and vulnerable already with all the hardships she endured still, she was never able to reach their expectations. She feels.. worthless.

Turning her gaze back on her phone that keeps ringing, she eventually sees the name of her mother, to be honest, her parents really loved her but they just don't understand her, it's hard to explain everything to them if they are willing to open their minds to listen, so in the end, Y/N faced it all alone creating a tough exterior that somehow easily to break.

She loves them.. she really does cuz they are the only one she's got.

Tiredly, she walks towards her table where her phone is placed but when she's going to grab it suddenly she hears a loud thud outside her room as if someone collapsed right in front of her door. She doesn't want to get involved with anything, maybe it's just a drunk Tennant or something she don't need to care about but something is urging her to get closer to her door. Without any more hesitation, she reaches her door and before moving the doorknob she takes a peek at the peephole and notices a man lying on the ground.

"Sir! Are you okay?" (Y/N) asks after opening the door and kneels to check the man, despite everything she's going through she can't still hide the fact that she easily cares about anyone.

While worrying about the man her eyes noticed a deep cut from his neck. Thick blood dripping on his shirt and to the floor. She was stunned about what she was witnessing until (Y/N) heard another scream through this hall. A big hand grabbed her arms to get her attention and quickly looked back at the man who only has a few seconds to live. He is trying to say something but there's no voice coming out from his mouth but through her lips you can easily read it.

Run

... was his last words before the man completely lost his life and a sudden scream echoed in the hallway.

"HELP ME!!" the girl in her twenties runs in (Y/N)'s direction only wearing a bath towel with a splash of blood on her legs. She doesn't look injured so surely those blood isn't hers.

"PLEASEEE!---RGGHH" she suddenly stops sprinting and slowly looks at her belly seeing the tip of a sharp knife went out from the other side. The woman fell on the floor revealing the man behind her. A white hoodie man with a creepy smile on his face, two long sliced which creates an inducing smile purposely carved on it, standing with his piercing eyes looks at the woman who's now on the floor bleeding while begging to spare her life.

"Shh, go to sleep.." Y/N heard him shush the woman who is screaming like a lullaby from the demon itself. With no more hesitation, he plunged his knife on her and stabbed her multiple times while laughing sadistically. Blood splattering to the wall whenever he pulls out the knife.

"AAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA" he laughs like a kid who enjoys playing with his toys. The moment he moves his head revealing the side of his face with that smile carved on it made you realize that this might be the moment you've been waiting for because no matter how hard you try to escape from here, surely you will fail, in the end, you will... die from him or to something else..

"What a surprise, you didn't run" he said in bis hoarse voice. Y/N did not hear any footsteps of him running towards her as if the world suddenly became silent in this moment, the only thing she can feel right now is not the guilt, not the happiness, not sadness, it's still an empty feeling.

She looks at the knife that's already pierced in her waist feeling her hot thick blood comes out as she looks at the hoodie man who's holding the knife. He was happy, at least that's what she knew because of that carved smile.

She can't even read his emotions if he is truly happy or just pretending to be.

When he pulls out the knife Y/N suddenly remembers a flash of her entire existence. The moment she was born and opened her eyes to see her parents with a big smile to have her in their life, the moment she created the happiest moment with her parents, everything.. was so perfect for a moment but what makes her so broken? so empty?

"so un..fair"

"shush, and go to sleep" after the hoodie man whispered that in hee ears, Y/N fell on the ground while staring blankly at the ceiling while asking herself..

Why does the world keep shattering my happiness? Why do people try to break me? What did I even do to.. deserve this?

As she moves her eyes to see this man lifting up his knife to finish her. Realizing that she's already dead on the inside ever since as she welcomes her death. (Y/N) closed her eyes as he said the word sleep and before she passed out because of losing too much blood, a siren of the police car echoed in her head.

I hope... I will never wake up.

She whispered until the darkness envelopes her.