Slotted together // Blairon Soulmate au

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Me and Harry still hadn't made a decision and it had been a week. To be fair I wasn't exactly a fan of having to sleep with Blaise again, it wasn't exactly on my list of things to do today. I didn't even know what happened, and I didn't want to know. All I did know is that Blaise was sick, he slept with Draco on my birthday. Of all days.

"What are we going to do Ron." Harry was pacing again, like he always did when he was stressed.

"I don't know." I knew Dumbledore needed an answer soon, but I didn't want to come to one. I'd rather just keep pretending I was still trying to make my mind up till November came.

"I hate him so much." Harry said, "but I love him too..." he stopped walking.

"I don't want to die Ron." I put my head in my hands and my sleeve fell down my arm.

"Ron oh my god!" Harry grabbed my wrist. I realised what he was doing and pulled it away.

"It's fine it doesn't hurt." I said and Harry gave me a look.

"Why were you trying to cut it out." He asked and I shrugged.

"I don't want his name on my freaking body Harry!"

"Doesn't mean you try and cut it out! You know that doesn't work!"

"I don't care I want it gone."

"Look I know you hate him right now." Harry said softly, "but you can't cut his name out."

"Even if I could it doesn't work." I said and he rubbed his forehead.

"Promise me you won't do it again."

"Why should I?"

"Because I was constantly in fear from the moment Draco woke up that he would do something like what he did again. I don't care if I hate him I'm still scared that he is going to spiral out of control and kill himself because of it!" I watched Harry's eyes tear up again. "I don't wanna have to feel the same way about you Ron, I know it doesn't hurt but you still bleed, and you still get that faint feeling in your head and you still have the marks to show it. Don't be like me and Draco. Stop while you can." I threw myself back on the bed resting my hands on my head just as the door opened.

"Ron?" I heard his voice and my body went rigid, I didn't dare to look up.

"What do you want Blaise." Harry sighed.

"I want to talk to Ron." I looked at Harry and shook my head.

"Ron doesn't want to speak to you right now." Harry said as my eyes filled with tears once more. I said I wouldn't cry over him but I just couldn't help it, Blaise was someone worth crying over.

"I just-"

"Please go." I managed to get out my throat sore from trying to push back the tears.

"Ron please-"

"Go Blaise!" I said putting my wrist out pointing at the door Blaise grabbed it looking at the marks covering his names. I didn't bother to pull my hand away he'd already seen it. He let go and I let my arm fall, Blaise didn't say another word just back out the room his face having a look of horror written all over it. As soon as the door closed I lost it grabbing a glass filled with water and throwing it at the door in anger my body hurting physically and mentally. Harry stood rooted to the spot unsure what to do but I'm sure everyone else heard the glass smash, this room wasn't soundproof like the others.

Hermione came rushing in and saw my state running over and wrapping her arms around me instantly. Pansy came in following her and made sure Harry was okay.

"He just makes me so angry Mione. I can't do it, I can't do it anymore." I shook my head as she held me.

"Ron please, you can't go."