Swithene's POV
"I... I don't know." Do I love her? A million percent yes. Do I have the courage to admit it? I don't. I don't want to confirm anything because we never know when the time comes that I have been clowning myself the whole time, I have no one who'll pick me up but myself.
Judging by their expression, I am nothing but an open book. With that, a wave of sadness hit right through me.
"Swithene... Aren't you tired trapping yourself with the past?" Yong confronted me. To be honest, I am. I am very tired but letting my guard down frightens me. A person can love you in a day but they probably wouldn't on the next day.
"Loving the same person who hurt me scares me unnie." I've seen myself be crushed and be disgusted of myself before and I had no one. The me 10 years before would probably shake her head when she sees me falling inlove to the same person. But I can't help it. All this time, the feelings are still alive and overpowering the pain.
I didn't even notice that I was being embraced by my friends. "I understand what you mean." Maria hummed as she rubbed on my back in comfort.
"Listen, I'm not saying anything about what you should do with your relationship with Byul. Loving someone always comes with a price . I never heard of Byul's side of the story but whatever it is unnie the decision is always up to you if that person is worthy enough for what you have and what you're willing to offer."
"I'm not even sure if she thinks I worth even just a slightest bit of hers." I sighed.
"How come you say that?" Yong interfered. I remained silent. I don't know... Based on experience?
"Hey we don't know that which is why I guess it's best to make things crystal clear for the both of you by now. It may be difficult but confrontation always solves the problem. Maybe It's time to offer yourself the peace you deserve." Maria gave a small smile . Her smile itself encourages me that everything will be okay regardless of what happens.
"We're always moving forward to be someone we wanna be Swithene. You have to look ahead of what's in front of you instead of constantly looking behind you, or else you'll always end up stumbling. One step to let go of the past is closure. " Yong said. This is the first time Yong speak seriously in awhile and what they said clarified my mind. It somehow made me happy and somewhat secured.
"You are the Great Cambria Swithene Myoung of The Myoung Enterprises." she finished proudly.
"You give such 2015 pinterest quotes vibes unnie." I cackled upon hearing Maria's roast to the eldest.
"This kid.. Hey, I'm very good at giving wisdom and people thought I could be a philosopher someday." Yong crossed her arm arrogantly.
"Holy sh*t.." Maria gasped.
"Hey, I'm older than you. Don't curse at me like that." Yong chided.
"No not that kind of holy sh*t, I know you're old no need to flex. Aight? Don't look but... I see Byul at the table on the other side of the corner just by the window riiiight behind you." My eyes widen in shock.
"I don't think she even knows we're here."
"I-I think it's best to leave them alone and let them be. It's probably the urgent meeting she's talking about." I said and began sipping unto my soup that have just arrived. I want to be invisible as of the moment. I've got runny nose due to bawling my eyes just few minutes ago and being seen in this kind of estate would be super awkward on my part.
"She's got a client that's a looker. Yong unnie, check this out." Maria became looking like a giraffe watching Byul from the other side of the table. I couldn't hold back anymore and turned my head to their direction for a split second.
My heart sank to my stomach realizing who she's with. I am very confused right now. Where's the client? They're alone and talking.
I thought there's an important meeting?WHAT IS GOING ON?!
Okay calm down.. Relax... This is not the time for me to be monkey-ing around and feel like a girlfriend.
"That's her secretary." Both gasped hearing the information. "No way~!"
I took a deep breath this should not affect me in any way. I have no right to be. It's not like they have a relationship or anything, right? Not that I care or anything.
"You guys need to chill, they're probably talking about office stuff.. You know." I reasoned out.
"Girl, Office stuff can also be discuss in the office if it's only with a secretary , not on candle lit tables in restaurants. Are you sure they're not a thing?" these two really want to put me over the edge and do everything for me to make out a reaction.
"Unnie.. Stop it." I gave them a poker faced look. I wouldn't lie, Yong is indeed right. I never even took Cecil out for a dinner to discuss office stuff unless if it's with a client so this means they're probably discussing something personal. In this case, it's only just the two of them no matter how much I cross or rub my eyes.
"Whatever it is, It's none of my business." I said and turned my back at the eyesore. I'm surprised Maria even spotted them quickly. Suddenly those two crackheads started acting weird like studying body language and making up theories like they study Psychology or something. I silently ate my food and pretended I hear nothing even though deep inside I'm feeling like I'm starting to get convinced by these two's speculations.
"Look, Look.. her hand is on top of hers'." Yong exclaimed. "I don't trust you unnie, you quite have a vision as poor as Swithene's when she was still in college." Maria shook her head.
"Haha very funny." Yong rolled her eyes. "I am very curious, Is this even a typical normal boss and secretary relationship?!"
"In the romantic novels, it is." I mumbled.
"Of coarse it is because it's a 'romantic novel', Jeez unnie. You probably read too much hot handsome bosses and sexy secretary novels in your teenage years." Maria rolled her eyes.
"Don't worry Cam, she.. may look like a sexy main character but average looking girls usually are the main leads, trust me." Maria ended up wheezing at Yong's unhelpful helpful confidence boost.
"Wow, that helped my insecurities a lot, thank you." I sarcastically replied.
"I guess she's trying to say you look as plain as a paper unnie. But so what if you're a blank paper? A handsome CEO can be the pen and write all over you." Maria added with such weird expression. I glanced back at her.
"I'm gay." I said while I chewed my food. "I didn't say it has to be a man though." she pouted.
Touche.
"Look if you don't look right now they're gonna kiss before you know it." I am so not gonna look back. "The h*ll I care whether they make out or not. They can suck each other's faces and I wouldn't give that much of a d*mn."
"Oh sh*t. Unnie.. Byul brought a gun." my brows furrowed. What?
I quickly looked back and my body became as frozen as elsa's castle because lord did I got baited by my friends. Apparently, She's already staring directly at me with such usual icy gaze and only a few inches away from my face. Her hand placed on my backrest supporting her weight as she already leaned closer to me.
"That kinda stings Swiden." she smirked.
Damn it, no need to be this hot and sexy. Jeez...
to be continued.....
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