Pain Is Power

38: New Life

We drive to the grocery store which was a new experience for the both of us, we get the food to the compound delivered every week. We each put in a list and it gets sent to the compound we unpack it and then it's done so it was different.

"We should have made a list," I say as we walked in pushing the shopping cart, Amelia's purse was on the child seat of the cart she walked beside me looking around. "We don't have Wanda or Peppa with us either." She noted. "So we need easy meals," I confirm and she nodded. Neither of us was skilled in the kitchen at all. We both always got put on chopping duty.

"We need Pasta and Rice." She says. "Vegetables." She nodded. We go around the store getting what we thought we may need, it was funny we made fun of ourselves and how completely clueless we were. "He's there," Mila said quietly. She pointed and said something about a bunch of flowers and I followed her line of directions and noticed our target. I nodded and spoke back and then we went to the checkout. 

Mila paid on our credit card and then she went to the car. "I'll be back." "Okay." She didn't seem to care in fact she welcomed the lack of company as she loaded the trunk with the food we just brought. I went back inside to put the tracking chip in place, we made contact sooner than we thought we would and I was taking the opportunity. He was still standing by the flowers picking a bunch out. I stood beside him and looked at them. "A lady should never buy her own flowers." He says to me and I look over at him. "Exactly my thoughts," I say picking a bunch up. "No man in your life that can get these for you?" "These are for my fiancé... We've just moved here for work so I thought I'd surprise her." I say not giving too much away. "Oh." I pulled a face. "Well I hope she enjoys them." "I hope your wife does too," I say I dropped the bug on the floor where he'd walk and it would attach to him. A great piece of tech Tony created. 

I go buy the flowers and meet Amelia in the car. "For you," I say presenting her the flowers she had a shy smile. "Thank you." She took them from me allowing me to get in the car and strap in. "Did you do it?" I nodded starting the car up. "It's in place." She pulled out her phone and began to type away. "And we're now tracking him." She says putting her phone down, the blank look was back on her face. "Morgan is safe. I promise you." I tell her. 

"I can't lose her Nat... She's my happiness." Her voice quivered and I put my hand on her knee and rubbed it slightly. "You won't lose her," I tell her. "There's just a lot happening right now." "Take a break." "I can't." "Why?" I looked at her but she was looking out of the window, I leave my hand on her knee only when I needed it to drive the car. "I think about her when I'm not busy and it makes me feel like giving up the longer we're apart." That broke my heart. "I'm not suicidal or anything. It's just hard." I nodded understanding but she wouldn't look at me to know that. 

"Well whilst we're here, I'm going to take care of you." "I don't need taking care of." "You're tired... I can help." Tired for us isn't the physical kind, it's the mental aspects. Our bodies had endured so much that physically tired isn't a thing for us. But the mental side for it, it gets hard. I go dark. Mila shuts down. Yelena goes further into chaos. We deal with it differently but we have to help each other through this. 

She put her sunglasses down covering her eyes. We drive the rest of the way in silence and then we carried the groceries in together and we packed them away together. Mila was being quiet again, I assume this is what most of the month is going to be like because that's what it's been like at the compound recently. 

"I'm going to check on." I pointed, she nodded handing me her phone so I can download the tracking chip for us to have both a remote way of tracking him and a stable way. I did it quickly and checked the cameras there was nothing really happening, just his wife unpacking shopping bags in her large closet.