Pain Is Power

7: I'm Sorry

Natasha's pov

I was in the lounge with Peter, Sam, Wanda and Mimi. We were watching a horror film, everyone was really invested in it, everyone except Wanda and Mimi who were giggling at each other from across the room. Clearly using their powers to communicate with one another. They weren't being loud enough to disrupt anyone else. They were just annoying me. 

"Can you two stop?" I snapped at them. "You're causing a disturbance, Natasha," Mimi said with a snarky smirk. "You've been giggling for the past hour. Just stop." I snapped back at her. "No one else is complaining. You're the one causing a scene." "Girls let's not," Sam said to the both of us. "I wouldn't of if she didn't start," Mimi said turning away from me and back to the screen. "You started it." She rolled her eyes. I shook my head and left the room not wanting the argument to escalate any more than it already was. 

I was nice to her. I carried her to bed. I try my best to apologise and make it up to her but somehow it's not enough and we still manage to argue with one another. Everyone is tired of it. I'm tired of it. I'm sure she's tired of it but it's like we can't help ourselves. "It's the tension," Wanda says just appearing in my bedroom. "What?" 'Why you keep bickering. It's the tension, you need to talk about what happened." "We can't." "Why not?" "Because it's just going to make things worse." "I don't think it will." "You don't know what I did." "I do, she told me, showed me." 

Panic set in, if Wanda knew she must think I was a horrible person, they were kids, they were 12 years old and I left them to defend themselves for my own selfish gain. "I know you must have been pretty desperate to leave them like that." But it wasn't the first time I sacrificed a child for my own personal gain, Dreykov's daughter was my next victim. I had horrible morals and so much bad karma built up. Maybe I deserved Amelia's coldness. "You're not a bad person Nat." She sat on my bed beside me. "You wanted to survive." "So did they." "And they did." "Not all of them did." I snapped back. She looked away from me. "Exactly." "Do you think you could have stopped that?" "We all could have gotten out." "No you all would have been stuck there and we wouldn't have even known about the red room if that happened." "You guys would have figured it out." "Your sister got out... When she was 16." She tells me. "Amelia told me." She explains. "Has she spoken to Yelena?" She shakes her head. "But she has tabs on her." So she wasn't lying to me when she said she was alive then. "No, she wasn't lying." "I don't like it when you do that," I tell her. "Don't think so loud and I wouldn't do that." I rolled my eyes. "Your thoughts are only that loud when they involve Amelia... Why?" "I don't know I guess because I care about her." I shrugged. "Then tell her." "I can't. She hates me. I betrayed her trust and I hurt her. I could have gotten them killed. It was all my idea and I left them to take the heat for it." "Forgive yourself." "I can't." "Then how do you expect her to forgive you?" 

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"Girls enough. I'm sick and tired of your constant bickering." Bruce says at the dinner table when Amelia and I start round 17,000 of the day. She looked at Bruce then back to me before picking her fork up and eating her dinner not saying anything else. 

"Amelia is going on her first mission tomorrow," Peppa says to the table. "That's amazing, Melia," Wanda says with a proud smile, they shared a look. "What mission?" "Intel, Parker and Mimi are going to infiltrate a homeschool winter formal." "Do you have a dress?" Wanda asked. She nodded. "It's amazing," Amelia said her eyes lighting up. "Dad picked it out." "What colour." "Red of course." She says in a duh tone. "I want to help with your hair." The girls then gush over tomorrows activities. 

I think it was jealousy that I was feeling. Seeing them two being best friends when they were still practically strangers. They've known each other for 4 months. 4. That's not that long and they only bonded because they can both do the same thing with their twisted fucked up minds. Did I think that too loud? "Yeah, you did," Wanda said hurt. Amelia looked at me with a disappointed look shaking her head as Wanda left the table. "What happened?" Steve asked confused. "Call me all you like. Argue with me. Bitch about me but leave her out of it okay. This is our fight no one else's." She tells me rising from the table and going after Wanda.