Saving Riley

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Riley

"I'll call you every day, I'll call you every night!" James ranted as we stood in front of his tour bus 2 weeks later, I sighed placing my hands on his chest
"James, stop" I said making him look at me and take a deep breath
"What happened to don't even worry about it?" i smirked and he chuckled
"that went out of the window the moment you got kidnapped Ri" He said making me laugh
"Look, everything is going to be okay" I said as he placed his arms around my waist
"A lot can happen in 8 weeks" He muttered and I nodded
"i know, there will always be a part of me that will want you to stay but a bigger part of me knows that you need to do this" I said

"think of it this way, a few years down the line. Would you regret not going on?" I asked and he shrugged
"I don't know how about we find out?" He offered making me chuckle
"James" I warned him and he sighed nodding

"You call me if anything happens and I mean anything!" He said and I nodded
"I promise" I said and he sighed offering me a smile
"The last time we said goodbye like this was" He trailed off
"Julliard" I said and he hesitantly nodded
"There is one big difference though" I said smiling making him look at me slightly confused
"You'll be coming home to me and we'll be getting married" I smiled making him smile too
"I'll be counting down the days" He said before pressing his lips against mine

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It's not even been an hour since the boys left and I don't there is this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I can't seem to shake 
"you okay Riley?" Miss Kate asked coming into Riley's corner, I smiled in her direction and nodded
"James' tour finally hitting you?" She asked and I sighed
"I think so" I said, she came over with open arms to give me a hug
"Why don't you take the rest of the day off. Go home, relax or whatever you kids do in your spare time" She chuckled, I smiled nodding

Part of me wanted to stay at the studio, it would have been a good distraction but instead I got to my house and started crying 
The moment I walked through the door it hit
I'm going to be on my own for 8 weeks
Like James said, a lot can happen in 8 weeks
A lot..

I walked through the house picking up things here and there that needed to put away until I got to the kitchen. There on the kitchen island was James' coffee cup from this morning, now I know it seems so stupid 
But it broke me all over again..

The fact we won't be able to have breakfast together for the next 8 weeks, the fact I won't hear him whining about how I make the coffee, the fact that I'll be cooking for one instead of two
He's really gone 

I'm a hypocrite I know
I told him to go but now all I want is for him to be back
Walking up the stairs I stopped at our bedroom door, I know that when I walk into this room I'm not going to see what I expect..

Any given day, you'd find James clothes thrown around the place, you'd see his notebook on the dresser
But as I opened the door, it was in pristine condition like James had never been there at all 
As soon as I got deeper into the room there was a vase full of flowers in the place where James used to keep his books
I smiled walking over before seeing the note

'It doesn't matter where I am.. I'm yours -James '

I shook my head smiling holding the card in my hand tightly
It's 8 weeks, that's it
"What's 8 weeks when we have the rest of our lives together" I muttered to myself