Bucky x Reader

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Bucky's pov:

I just patted her back. How could I be so stupid!? I could've give her a hug or something at least..! Why am I like this? (Y/N)... She's just so different. Saying goodbye to everyone else was easy. But her... For some reason, I feel like that goodbye wasn't good enough. Hell, why do I care!? She's just one of the Avengers. ...She was the first one who made me feel more comfortable in this group. Having all this flashes in my mind, her always smiling, joking and laughing. Talking all the time things that doesn't even make any sense. I hate talkative people, and yet... When she's talking, I'm ok with that.

Knowing she means well, cares about others, making sure everyone is having a good time. Always smiling. Her smile... I have made her cry at least once. That was painful. But she still wanted to be my friend. My friend. Why hearing that made me feel weird? Why everything she does makes me feel some type of way? Is she actually a witch? No. She's normal, sweet and kind person, who doesn't get how much she means to everyone around her. I don't want to go to Wakanda, but I have to. It's for my own good. I'm a mess... Looking at the watch she gave me. Now all I can think about is her.

(Y/N)'s pov:

Been in a deep sleep for a while now after crying. Everywhere around the room feels cold, but under the covers feels so warm, so cozy. Suddenly, there is a knock on my door. I wake up from the deep sleep, not actually knowing am I still in a dream or not. My eyes are hard to keep open. Dragging myself to open the door feels heavy. Strong light from the hallway blinds me for a moment. Then I realize, it's Bucky who's standing right at my door. He's panting, like he had just ran a mile as fast he can. Having no time to say anything, he cups my face and puts his lips against mine. My heart jolt and eyes goes wide. Otherwise he feels warm, yet the touch of his metal arm against my other cheek feels cold. Like under a spell, I close my eyes. The kiss is deep, soft but passionate... Hard to explain, but all I know is, it's the best kiss I ever had. Then... I wake up. "H-huh..?" I raise my face from the pillow. It was a dream?! I was alone, in my own room, in bed, under the covers. Quickly, I take the phone from the nightstand. It's 6.56 am. Bucky has left to Wakanda.

How can a place, full of people, feel so empty without him? I thought as I'm eating breakfast with others. Soon, only Natasha and I were sitting on the kitchen table. "Did you give it to him?" Natasha ask. "Hm? The present? Yeah." giving a gentle smile down my coffee mug. "Did he... Like it?" she raise her eyebrow. "Yes, I-I think he did." my voice sounds sad, even I try not to. Nat gives me a look, look that was asking 'Did anything happened between us?'. Letting a broken chuckle:"He gave me a pat on my back.". "Men..." she roll her eyes. "That's all!?" Wanda whisper shouts. "God..! You scared me." I boggle. "I'm sorry, (Y/N)..." Wanda seem sad. "D-don't! There is nothing to be sorry about. He promised he'll buy me all kind of sweets when he comes back." trying to cheer up the mood.

First four months went well. Done nothing but training, hanging out with Lola, Nat and Wanda here and there. Catching all the shows on Netflix. Nothing special. I'm keeping a calendar, crossing over the days that has passed. Watching at the calendar in my hands while sitting on the bed. Four more to go. In Wakanda, he can not have his phone or any contact the 'outside world'. He needs full isolation. Sometimes I stop to wonder; why I care so much!? Would I be this worried, if any other of my friend went there for a long time? Probably. That's right! He is my friend! I'm just worried about my friend. Steve is worried too.

There's a knock on my door. "Nat! What's up?" a smile comes to my face. "Ok, don't be angry..." she start with. "Wh-?" I don't like where this is going... "I have a date for you!" she flashes a smile. "...A- A what now..?" I cross arms over my chest. Can't believe what she just said. "Yeah, a date. With a cute guy. He is perfect for you." she winks as she starts walking around my room, like Tony does. Why my room is so interesting for other people!? Before I could say anything, "You're welcome. The date is this Friday, 6 pm. Wear something cute." and she left the room. Quickly, I get up and run after her:"Wait! Nat!!!".

It turned out to be true. Nat had set me up on a date with a guy named Adam. She told me one of her date's friend needed company, so Nat thought me right away. Don't know if I should thank her or not... Last time I have been on a date was... A long time ago. It's been far too many years since I broke up with my last boyfriend. Never gone a date after that. Having these flashbacks the time I was together with my ex-boyfriend - David. We had gone out for about a year. We were even about to move in together. Then I became Tony Stark's assistant. David became jealous. It didn't make any sense. His jealousy was bad. At one point he even came to the office and tried to hit me, but Tony caught his fist just in time. After that I knew, it was over between us. Never knew why he was jealous. Because of my job or how close me and Tony got? I didn't think me and Tony were that close back then. He was just a man I worked for.

Friday came faster than I thought. Putting on a makeup, curling my hair nicely and changing clothes in my room, not knowing what to wear. "That looks good." familiar male voice says behind me. "Steve, what's up?" I continue looking my outfit from the mirror. Steve is leaning against the door frame. "Nothing. Just saw your door open. Came to see what's you doing." he smiles sweetly. "Well... I don't know if you heard, but I have a date. Tonight." I toss my hair back. "A date?!" he sound so surprised. "Nat set it up." rolling my eyes. "Ah... I get it." he relaxed his shoulders. "What you mean? You think I couldn't have a date for my own?" raising eyebrow at him. "Wh- No. No, no that's not what I meant!" he panic.

His face makes me chuckle. "Don't worry, I know what you mean. I'm not usually the one getting a date..." I start looking for my purse. "No. That's not it." he comes closer. "It's just... I'm happy for you. If there is anyone who deserves a date night, it's you, (Y/N)." he smiles and gave a quick stroke on my shoulder. I gave him a smile and continue to look for my purse. Steve sees it lying on the bed, he takes it and hands it to me. "You sure should look after your room..." he teases. "It's not that messy!!" I try to sound mad, but laughter comes out of me. Sure, my room is little messy now, after throwing all the clothes everywhere when I was trying to decide what to wear. "Oh! I gotta go, otherwise I'll be late." my phone is showing it's 5,25 pm. "Good luck, (Y/N)! Have fun!" Steve shout after me. "Oh! And don't tell Tony!" I shout back as I speed walk to the lift. "Why not?" he chuckles amused. "Because you know how he is!" the lift's doors gets closed. I'm wearing jeans, cute jumper, boots and the earrings Tony gave me.

Now I'm standing in front of the cafe we're supposed to meet. I feel so nervous about the date. Then, a very handsome man approaches me:"Hey! Are you (Y/N)?". He's tall, handsome and has a nice smile. "Y-yes! Are you Adam?" starting to blush a little here. "Yeah, I am." he smiles. "Shall we?" he opens the door for me, and we went in the coffee shop. Talking with him was easy, fun and full of laughter. He's really sweet and quite flirty. "A firefighter, huh?" I comment when he told me what he does for living. "Yep." Adam chuckles. "You do the half naked calendar every year with your co-workers?" I laugh jokingly. "Well... For some reason over fourty year old men with hairy and big bellies doesn't sell well." he jokes back and we both burst into a laughter.

Our date was three hour long. We got so much to talk about. Adam likes same things that I like! It's like he read my mind over and over again. He seem to be cool about the fact I'm Avenger. Most of the people would feel intimidated by it. "I had a great time!" Adam smiles after we come out of the coffee shop. "Me too!" I smile back. Then for my surprise, he pulls me into a kiss. I wasn't expecting that, but the kiss was... Nice. Both of us smile after pulling away. "So... I guess I see you again soon?" he ask, slight blush on his cheeks. "Yeah, sure." I'm unable to stop smiling. We exchanged our phone numbers and left in our separate ways.

"Soooo....~" Nat teases right after seen me at the kitchen. My smile tells it all. She just claps her hands and smiles. "You guys kissed!?" Wanda shouts and runs to me. "Kissed!? Who!?" Tony stand up from his seat. Shit. "No boys. There are rules in this house." Tony says with straight face. Nat, Wanda and I crack in laughter. "What? I'm serious!" he hisses. It just made us laugh even harder. Later that day, I went to my bedroom to take a shower. There was a text message from Adam:"Good night beautiful! Still thinking about that kiss ;)". I giggle and roll on my bed like a little schoolgirl. Still, even I had so much fun with him it didn't feel like... I wasn't crazy about him. But I guess that's alright... Then my eyes catches the calendar on the wall. Bucky quickly crosses my mind. Just a thought about him made my heart skip a beat. Bet he hasn't thought about me at all. He doesn't like me. I have to move on.