✓LOVER BOY | hwang hyunjin

09. Feel Better

@samsllama

2:11AM

:'(

and you're still awake
of course

don't act like you're texting me while sleeping

hey I was studying >:(

oh? you do that too?
I used to think you'd be the type to yawn their way through exams

hey hey hey
your behavior is...
not good

"not good"

someone is mad
let me fall on my knees and thank the one who made you mad

I thought you were my bestie

ew
don't say that. I've some respect

I hope you die painfully and slowly

I hope shrek marries you

a b c d e f u

weak

I am :(

:( bro that got sad real quick
is it the nightmares again?

hmm

how can I help you?

just talk to me

sul
if you would just
let me have a closer look at your troubles,
I might be able to do more than just be here
I could be there, with you
in real life
not,,, this
whatever we created in this chat box

I can't

but you want to

sam
we don't always get what we dream of
I'm terrified of it.
of letting my weakness be a source of pity

sul just trust me
we have known each other for so long

yet we barely know each other
sam, do you really think we are close?
we are close because we are able to hide behind a wall
if we walk into each other irl, we'll never even realise it
[ seen ]

I'm sorry
[ seen ]

hey
I take back what I just said
I'm sorry
[ seen ]

you always push me away in darkness. let me know what's wrong

I don't want to burden you.
because I love care for you as a friend

[ seen ]

The familiar ache grew inside Hyunjin. He stayed silent, eyes moving away from the screen, falling on the florescent stars Yeseul had sent him last month to mark their one year of friendship. Although he dismissed it to be childish, he was aware of how much this stranger meant to him.

"You don't mean it." He laughed, eyes closing to stay away from the distant hurt.

good night

12:58PM

I care about you. even on your bad days. especially on your bad days. so let me be there for you

Tears didn't take too long to follow when Yeseul read the message, her heart washed over by comfort and sadness all at once. And everything else numbed down, because there was a person who was willing to understand her, and hold her when she couldn't even care to think of herself.

Hyunjin stood afar, the smile dropping off from his face when he saw the girl crouched down, shoulders shaking, desperate to get the tears away from her face. The desire to run towards her and comfort her was too strong, yet he decided to stay put and hidden, before he was sure that Yeseul was once again ready to hold up a smile.