Getting Over Him

Fucking Crazy

Pat's P.O.V:

I don't know how much longer it will take for me to get over my feelings. I've always been honest with myself, so I've known for years now that I'm in love with Pran. One day, when we were playing cops & robbers as kids , I was the cop and Pran along with our peers was a robber. I tackled him to the ground, I was straddling him while looking into his deep dark brown eyes. 

My heart felt like it unlocked a newfound feeling that I did not know what to name it yet. Then, Pran kicked me in the gut so I got off of him. He was laughing at my pain, but his dimples were showing because of me so it was worth getting hurt. He stole my heart that day, and I let him escape very easily.

No, I'm not a masochist... well unless it's Pran, then I'm all for it. Paa thinks I'm fucking crazy for thinking that it's worth getting hurt by Pran if it is to see him smile. Honestly I also think I am a bit too crazy, which is why I want to get over my feelings for him. 

I don't think it's healthy to keep holding these feelings for him and kind of expecting him to reciprocate them. He doesn't owe me anything. Yet, I can't help but feel frustrated , and upset when I see him go dating other people. 

I am already 21 years old, I need to stop these unrequited feelings! I am sick of always having to deal with my feelings by myself, of restraining myself from even lightly touching him because I am afraid he will find out somehow that I love him, of having to pretend that it doesn't hurt me when I see him go on dates with people...

I am tired of being hurt by him... 

Even though he doesn't try to do it on purpose. I think that's more aggravating to me! He doesn't know how I feel, so he's not at fault, but it doesn't make it hurt any less.

I sigh while I tap on the hard wooden table at the café that is far away from our college. I look up, "Korn, how do I get over someone?" He stares at me with an eyebrow raised. "Who rejected the 165 IQ, straight A, handsome, beloved athlete of our renowned college?"

I roll my eyes, "that's just a fucking number that doesn't mean jack shit. It doesn't hold any special meaning, why does everyone make such a big deal about it?"

I sigh while ruffling my hair.

"Fine. You're never fun, maybe that is why you were rejected!" He sticks out his tongue, while I roll my eyes again. 

"Please be serious, I want to get over him." He widens his eyes in surprise, "wow. Honestly I did not know what to make of you, because I have never seen you have a crush on anybody. Moving on though, if you want to get over someone then just stay away from them. Don't look at their social media, out of sight out of mind. Also, I can set you up on a date with some cute guys if you would like to."

Staying away from Pran, not even looking up his socials will make me get over him? Doing that easier said than done. Maybe meeting someone new will distract me from him so I respond, "set me up on a date with anyone that you think fits my personality." Korn nods his head with a smirk, "I won't disappoint you, my friend." With that he gets his phone out, "I'm going to send you his contact info. He has been into you for a while now, and he's a cutie with a nice bootie. He is in the medical faculty, so he is also smart."

I just nod my head. I pray that he will make me get over Pran.

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Pran's P.O.V:

"Hey, Pran! Did you see Instagram?!"

I roll my eyes, "how many times do I need to tell you not to shout in my ears Wai?"

"Who cares about that right now! That big idiot went on a date with the hottest guy from the Medicine faculty!" Wai shows me that there is a hashtag trending with Pat and that other guy's name on Instagram. When he clicks on the hashtag there are photos of Pat smiling until his eyes almost disappear at that guy's face in a café.  Something feels like it's hurting inside me, and I don't like the feeling.

"Why are you so concerned with his life?" I ask him wanting to know why he needs to be so invested in Pat's life. "It's so surprising because nobody has seen him post about being on dates, and he hasn't been seen dating anyone on campus. It's really weird, but his fanclub are really happy that he is dating the hottest guy from the medicine faculty."

How hot is the guy from the medicine faculty that everybody is obsessed about him?Hell, even Pat my frenemy is into him I guess. 

"Good for him." I answer nonchalantly.

Now that Wai mentioned it, it's true. I have never seen Pat date anybody...it's weird.

"Why are you frowning Pran?"

I touch my forehead and I realize that I have been frowning. "I don't know, maybe I'm just hungry. Let's go eat."

With that we leave to the cafeteria but I hear many people shout Pluto. I turn my head to see what the commotion is about.

Holy hell...

It's the guy that was with Pat, he's handsome. Incredibly handsome but I start feeling my eyebrows starting to come together in a frown. Something about him does not put me at ease for some reason. 

Maybe it's just the fact that he looks like an attention whore that wants everyone's adoration. Flaunting those straight big white teeth with his smile. 

"Let's go Wai." I pull his hand so that we can go eat and ignore that attention whore.