Pat's P.O.V:
I am walking on the beach at night when I see him in his usual spot.
He never moves away from there.
It's his designated spot.
He smiles at me and I can see the craters of the moon on his cheeks.
I smile back, because I know this is only a dream.
He would never in reality smile at me.
I sit down beside him while staring into his dark brown eyes. I observe the details of his face very carefully.
This is the only time that I'm allowed to openly stare at him.
The only time that he won't care, that he won't yell at me, that he won't be utterly disgusted with me.
That's why when I have these dreams I just choose to stare at his face all I want.
I say nothing.
Even if I say something, he doesn't ever respond.
In the beginning I would just confess my love for him, but he would just smile and not say anything.
It's like he's a machine that seems like it has life, but it's actually hollow inside.
Maybe that's why I would confess to him.
Because I knew he couldn't reject me.
My feelings wouldn't get hurt that way.
I could relieve myself of my feelings by confessing to him in my dream.
I just continue to admire his features.
None of the matters of the outside world matter here.
It's just me and him.
It's funny.
Even in my dream I don't dare to touch him.
I know he isn't real.
Yet, I'm scared that he'll pull away from me and be disgusted by my actions.
Even in my dreams I hold myself back.
And then I see the sunrise and I know I have to go back.
My eyes open to my room.
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Getting Over Him
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