Getting Over Him

What did I do?

Pran's P.O.V:

I went back to my room in disbelief of what I just did.

I didn't think things through properly .

Fuck. What did I just do?

What did I do that for?

Just to see Pat more often? So that I can keep an eye on him?

Was it really worth making our groups go through the same thing all over again just so that I can make sure that Pat is with them, and not someone else?

That was purely out of impulse!

Shit.

That's not me at all.

The reality of what I just did is starting to sink in.

I'm deeply regretting it, but it's too late to take back what I've done...
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Pat's P.O.V:

I can't take it anymore.

I can't take it anymore.

This is too much for me.

I feel like the world has it out for me.

I put on my clothes, I grab my car keys, my house key, and run to my car.

I go back to my parents' house and talk to Paa in her room. She's on her bed looking severely annoyed at me.

"Pat!! How many times do I have to tell you to kno-"

"Paa, I need to have a serious conversation with you. I don't know what to do anymore!" I sound really tired of everything.

She doesn't say anything more. She pats the side of her bed so that I can sit beside her. I do sit next to her.

I take a deep breath before explaining.

"I'm trying to get over Pran, but he seems to be reaching out to me more. I want to fall back into him. I want to hold him tight, make sure that no one will be able to harm him. I want to tell him how I feel even if I will get rejected and ruin our weird relationship.

But by doing that, I'll be throwing everything into the gutter. I can't allow myself to do that. I need to hold myself back, once I get rid of these feelings I'll be able to treat Pran like a normal friend. I thought I could do that by being with Pluto, however it's unfortunate that Pran was still on my mind. It's great that I managed to still be friends with Pluto, even if I think he takes way too many selfies and pictures of everything."

I pause before looking at Paa who just nods while saying, "continue."

I sigh before continuing, "Pluto cheers me up by telling me dad jokes. I cheer him up by showing him my funny facial expressions. It felt like I was taking a much needed break from everything when I was with Pluto. It felt as if I didn't have to think about our faculties hating each other, about my family hating Pran's, how I wish to just be able to freely hug Pran out of nowhere. Pluto doesn't remind me of any of that.

But I really couldn't bring myself to see him as anything more than a friend.

Then, Pran just showed up out of nowhere to tell me we'll be making more bus stops! That our faculties will be collaborating. That I'll be seeing more of him, that I don't know if I can keep my heart at bay if I see more of him!" I finishing explaining while sounding burnt out.

I look at Paa to see her reaction. She's contemplating what to say next.

"I got it. Just when you were starting to distance yourself from him, it seems that you can get away from him right?"

I nod.

"If you can't beat them join them. You don't actually have to interact with P'Pran as much when building the bus stops. You just need to focus on doing your work, and if you need to tell him something you can send me. Just send me a text message and I'll let him know."

I hug her right away even if she's trying to push me off!

"PAT! Get off! You stink like a skunk!"

"I am so glad to have such a smart little sister!! I owe you a huge one!"

She smiles at this as if she already has an idea of what I could do for her.

"Can you ask P'Ink to show me around more places on campus? I'm too shy to ask her, and you're too busy."

I nod my head, "of course! Anything for my sister!" I hug her again and she groans.

I'm so happy that I have a plan now to distance myself from him!