Getting Over Him

A volcano eruption. A tsunami.

A/N: WARNING!!! THERE WILL BE SOME MENTIONS OF DEATH AND BEING BEHEADED!! 

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Pat's P.O.V:

A volcano eruption. A tsunami.

It's as if the apple of discord was hurled at me. A thing that should have never been done was done. I can see it before my eyes, how the end of the world is starting to happen because of our accidental kiss. My first ever kiss. Everyone will blame me for ending the world. For causing massive destruction, for wreaking havoc upon the world. 

When his lips touched mine, all the emotions that I had been holding back and trying to push down into the deep depths of my heart were trying to burst out of it. I had to grab those feelings by the reins and pull them back. I had to beat them into submission. It was very difficult to not let myself get immersed in it, to pull his hair so that I could keep kissing those soft, big luscious lips.  

I imagine this is how Eve felt when she finally got a taste of the forbidden fruit. Although she knew she shouldn't eat it, she still took a bite out of it and was casted out of paradise. I feel like I understand her now. 

This is not what I wanted. 

This is not what I needed. 

This has got to be some fucking sick joke. 

I must seem like a jester to whoever is writing out my life to be some tragic comedy movie. 

That's what my life is. It's a tragic comedy movie.  I think a lot of people would have a good laugh while watching it. Pitying me for being the fool.

A jester that is in love with the prince of his sworn enemy's kingdom. He once in a while puts on a show for the enemy's prince in order for their kingdoms to seem like they are on good terms, but not once will the prince laugh.  The jester is an actor. The jester has to smile as wide as the sky, and please everyone by making fun of himself. The jester hides all the pain behind his smile and makeup. 

Not once will the prince ever reciprocate his feelings. The prince just puts up with the poor fool's antics to make him laugh, but never lets up. This is the prince's way of having mercy on the fool. That is why the jester is in love with the prince of his sworn enemy's country. The prince always takes pity on the poor fool. And because the jester has never been accepted, nor cared for like this, he easily fell for the prince. 

When the people of his country find out that he has been in love with the prince, the jester's head will surely roll on the floor away from his body in front of everyones' eyes. Instead of crying, they all laugh because even when the jester was being beheaded he was putting on a show as that is all he has ever known to do. Even the audience that was watching the movie will laugh at his death.  

That's what I am. I am a jester, and Pran is the prince. 

Those are our roles until death do us part. 

When the doorbell rings, I push him off of me and get the delivery. 

I don't even dare try to look into his eyes. I'm afraid of the disgust that they might hold. I look at his head, and focus on it while trying to be as casual as possible about it. That's what jesters do, they act like fools. They hide their true emotions behind their painted on smiles. This way he won't suspect that I'm being strange after the accident.  

After Pran tells me that he wrote 'loser' all over my face. 

 See? Another cruel joke. 

Oh, the irony. 

I want to burst out laughing. I think it suits me well. I think that it describes how I am currently feeling.  I think it describes the life of a jester.  

But I don't laugh, instead I pretend to be mad and I throw Pran onto the couch playfully. Carefully, though I don't think that he thinks that I'm being careful. I get Paa's call, and I tell Pran that I need to leave. 

Once I enter my room and I see her on my bed, I run to her with tears in my eyes. All of my emotions come pouring out of me.

"Woah I'm only here to check up on you. If I knew you were going to be crying, I wouldn't have even bothered to come." 

Then I tell Paa everything. 

"What the fuck am I supposed to do now that what I thought was never going to happen happened? How am I supposed to get over him now?"