Getting Over Him

Could've been

Pran's P.O.V:

"I- I- why? Why did it have to be him? Why do I like him? Nothing will ever come of us!"

I grab a handful of my hair at my sides hard with my fingers. I am losing my shit, but I am also thinking that I am a fucking idiot for not noticing it sooner! Maybe if I wasn't in denial for so long, made a move on him before he-who-shall-not-be-named did, then maybe we could have been something else.

Something that's not what we have where we are not a hundred percent friends, but also not a hundred percent enemiesI like him.

"How the hell would I know why you're feeling what you're feeling? Hey, he might be our enemy at school just because he's in the engineer faculty, but I think he's an overall nice dude. If I had a daughter, I would want her to marry-"

Wai stops talking when I send him a death glare. I like Pat. My sworn enemy...

"I'm just saying! Who wouldn't want to date him? He is a star athlete! And he always pays for the meals even if we lost! You know how fucking amazing that is? Like yeah, we might have to act annoyed that he pays our dinner but we actually like it when he does."

This motherfucker is not helping me try to get over him one bit. He just keeps bringing up things about him that make me like him even more! 

Pat- the guy that is 21 years old but still sleeps with a raggedy stinky ass doll. The one that can be as fierce as a lion when provoked, but as sweet as honey when calm.  Who carries a weight that his father forced him to carry on his back. Who smiles through all every and all obstacles that are thrown at him. He has a soft heart that resides inside his strong, unbreakable body. He has a strong sense of justice that could one day have him severely injured at the hospital. The one that is my competition. I shouldn't feel this way for him!

My parents will kill me if they ever find out that I like him! They will send me to a boarding school abroad that will have some spartan training and kill me slowly for liking my enemy. Or maybe, if my parents truly love me then they will have some mercy on me and just kill me there in the comfort of my own home. My ghost will roam this Earth and haunt Pluto's ass so that he could leave Pat the fuck alone. 

I slap myself! 

"Pran what the fuck is wrong with you? You just slapped yourself... is it that you hate the fact that you like Pat? Is that it?" I shake my head no at him. 

"I was just having some slightly violent thoughts about a certain someone..." 

Wai looks like I am being possessed by a demon. 

I am. 

The demon's name is Love, and has taken over my body that it makes me think of things that I should never think about. 

"Pran. Go right now and make up some excuse about the bus stops so that you could talk to him. You have so many opportunities to make him fall for you! You even know that he likes guys, so that makes it slightly easier right?" 

I sigh. "Not when it's Mr.Hotshot that he's dating. The one that everyone is drooling over. Who has excellent grades and a great attitude, unlike me." 

I swirl my cup around with my hand. 

Wai slams the table. "Have you forgotten that you are also a Hotshot?! You are our faculty's number one sought after man! Who also has good grades, and yeah, you not having a good attitude is true..." 

I quirk up an eyebrow at this, "thanks. I guess? But this doesn't mean that he is going to automatically throw away his stellar boyfriend for a guy that he sees as a brother. And not to mention, that his parents fucking hate me and my family. Which is fair, because my family also hate his." 

"You guys sound a bit like Romeo and Ju-" 

"Don't even go there Wai! Romeo and Juliet at least liked each other... and I don't think we would be as cheesy as they are." 

Wai laughs at my misfortune, "listen to me dude. You need to go after Pat right now and try being in his sight no matter what okay? Maybe give him food every time you see him so that he can at least be excited to see you." 

I frown at this, "isn't that like conditioning him to like me? Somewhat tricking him into liking me?" 

Wai just shrugs his shoulders, "hey all is fair in love and in war. He is not married so it is not like you are doing something immoral. That is why I think you should seduce him!" The audacity this guy has to say that while wiggling his eyebrows up and down in a suggestive manner.

"I would hate to be your enemy Wai. You are beyond crazy and evil." I shake my head at him.  

He sighs, "you would think no one would want to be my enemy right? But tell me why this bastard Korn constantly tries to fight me? Even if we are not in physical fights, it's like a mental warfare with him! And I hate to admit it- but he's winning!" 

He shouts while waving his arms crazily. 

"Maybe Korn is just that smart. If he can beat you- then I would not want to be his enemy. He does not seem like it, but he is also smart." 

Wai has his head down on the table, looking as if he is admitting defeat. 

I think about what Wai advised me to do. "You are right. I should go to Pat and just constantly be near him, even if he's busy.But I won't try conditioning him into liking me, and as much as I hate Pluto- I won't try to break them up."