You can't Outrun the Truth

Don't Let Me Go

Spanish is in bold

Past is in italics

I hope you're ready for it :)

May 2019

Jill and I have been on rough terms ever since I made the video about my past. She didn't like Rose very much and thought she forced me to make the video. It probably didn't help that I denied being in a relationship with her. I had been talking to Leila a lot more due to that and my video. Which was spread around social media like wildfire. My uncle was arrested as well and all of my friends knew.

"So London, what do you want to talk about today?" I was at my therapist's office for my weekly appointment.

"My relationship with Jill."

"What about it?"

"We're both stubborn, so she's avoiding me and I'm pushing her to talk to me and it's just getting worse. It's all just getting worse."

"What started the argument? If we can identify that it may help."

"It was in March when I first released the video."

March 2019

"Rose forced you to make that video didn't she?" Jill questions me.

"No, we talked about it and agreed it was the right thing to do," I say.

"You hate the public eye, you hate telling people anything about your parents and now you're announcing it to the world?"

"Jill, it's not like she held a gun to my head and forced me to talk," I joke.

"And you're not in a relationship?"

"Did you want me to just confirm it? I'm not even out to anyone yet Jill."

"Ok. I have training, bye."

"So, have you tried to talk to her about why you felt the need to make the video? You just said it was the right thing to do, how about explaining gently that it was a way to have a grasp on the rumors."

"I have, she said I should have waited so she could say something too."

"Do you think she's upset that she didn't have any opportunity to talk to you about putting your story out there?"

"You're the doctor here," I think over it and sigh. "Maybe she is. But I think she's caught up on the photos of me and Leila that were in the article, I've been talking to her a lot more ever since the article was published."

March 2019

I had silenced my phone and was trying to go to sleep, Rose was passed out next to me after we had a cry session but I couldn't allow myself to sleep. I picked my phone up and saw a missed call from Leila an hour ago followed by a text asking if I was alright. I typed out a reply saying I was fine and would call her in the morning.

23 March 2019

"No, Leila I am not playing for Barcelona," I laugh. I got a few strange looks from people as I walked down the London streets but ignored them nonetheless.

"I'm just saying that if anyone else tried something there are many people here to kick their ass," she explains dead serious.

"I think you would have to get in line with everyone else I play with."

"I should be high in line! I helped you with your uncle!"