Confusing // Ethan Dolan

Chapter ten

3:45PM

"Hey," he smiles with that beautiful smile of his. "Hi Ethan," I smile back at him. It wasn't a fake smile, seeing him smiling makes me smile, as cheesy as it sounds.

"So what are you up to?" He asks opening the door of the car for me.

"Uhm, I don't know, I don't really know what to do for fun."

"Fun?" He laughs "I just wanted to hangout with you, I don't care if we're going to have fun, I don't care where we're going, as long as I'm with you I don't care about anything else"

Now I know what he meant about hanging out.

"Now do you see why do I like you?" I blush after I say that.

"Nope I still don't have a clue."

"You're dumb I guess."

"You're dumber because you like me."

"You're dumber because we're still in front of my house."

"Touché."

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After we got some milkshakes we were just walking on the beach, and laughing so much. I think I never laughed like this before.

"You're funny,"

"I know,"

"So why do you want to make people think you're a bad boy?"

"I don't make people think I'm a bad boy, people assume I am because people don't know me. Didn't you realize? Everybody assumes things about people they don't know about. And those who assume are ignorant and stupid, at least that's what I think."

"I mean, people never assumed nothing about me but I get your point."

"I did."

"Oh, what did you assumed?"

"The first time I saw you it was a breath-taking. At my house, remember? Of course you remember. I thought I was alone with my brothers but then I saw you and next thing I knew you were coming to my room, it was so quick, you know? The kiss. Quick and weird."

"Quick and very very weird."

"But answering your question, I assumed you were a girl I'll never get a chance with... and look at me now"

I blush.

"I thought you were a just-for-a-night kind of guy."

"I was, but people change."

"Is this a date? We're not dating dating, I mean, no, yes, I don't know. Relationships aren't my thing but I could try, no, well, I don't know, uh I"

I was so nervous I didn't even know how to make a proper sentence. We're clearly not dating but I don't know what came out of my mouth. I guess he makes me feel nervous. really nervous.

He laughs, "I know relationships aren't your thing, and either are mine. You already told me that but I don't know, with you is different. I want to spend more time with you, just hanging out and doing stuff like this. Laughing and drinking milkshakes, spending time together."

I blushed again. "I had so much fun today, the funniest two hours of my life. To me it's different with you, too. I feel safe around you and I want to do more stuff like this."

"And this isn't a date because I didn't ask you properly for it."

And finally he leaned in. I was waiting for this since the moment I opened my front door. His lips are so irresistible. He is. We started kissing, not like a hot make out scene but a cute kiss. A nice one, it was like a long peck on the lips.
When we pulled out I smiled as I saw his smile.

"You drive me crazy Malena."

If only he knew how he makes me feel when he says stuff like that. I feel alive, good. I'm not in love with him but I do care about him, I have feelings for him and I know they'll be growing more and more in a matter of time, I hope he feels the same way towards me.

It's not easy for me to tell him this but I think I should, maybe he's just looking for a... A romance but a short one, maybe a meaningless one, perhaps not even a romance, just having fun with just a person and then what? Absolutely nothing.

I remember what Cameron told me at her house: "don't expect nothing from him", does that mean that all of this could be just a big lie? I know for a fact that he likes me, I can see it in his eyes but I can't see anything more.

He said he just wants to spend more time with me and 'hang out' more often, does that mean... friends?

Friends don't kiss, friends don't flirt, this isn't just a friendship but he makes it so confusing. I wish I could read his mind and know what he thinks or I wish he could just tell me what he thinks, what he really thinks. But it's okay because we're nothing official so we don't need to act like a couple.

I don't think I'll ever consider being in a relationship with him, but who knows? I'm as confusing as him. That's one thing we have in common.

"What are you thinking about?"

"The future, you, us. I want to know what do you want us to be."

"I'm not used at actually liking girls the way I like you, it's different to me. I'm different." He said sincerely.

"I know you are and that's one of the things that most attract me to you."

"We should take things slow and see what we want us to be, not just me."

"You're right, we should. What time is it?"

"6:10PM, time goes by fast"

"Yes it does! It's time for me to go home."

"I'll drive you."

We walked back to his car, I love it when he drives, he looks so concentrated and attractive.

Hopefully he doesn't notice that everytime I'm in his car I stare at him the whole ride. I'm staring at him right now. I can't not do it, it's stronger than me.

His eyes looking at the road. He had that intimadating look he had the first time I saw him. Everything about him makes him so beautiful.

And suddenly I felt a big hand grabbing mine. I smiled at the sight of us holding our hands. I feel like this is the most cute thing we've ever done together.

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"Thank you for the ride Ethan, and for today"

"It's been my pleasure baby"