Confusing // Ethan Dolan

Chapter nineteen

6:00 AM

"What happened last night?" I ask rubbing my hand through my forehead while groaning in pain, my head hurts so bad. I can't think, I can't remember anything. I woke up in Ethan's bed which is very strange because last thing I recall was that Violet, Cameron and I agreed to sleep over at Violet's after the party.

"What didn't happen last night?" He says with a smirk on his face, emphasizing the word 'didn't.' I give him a confused look, earning a confused look from him as well.

"Ethan, what happened last night? My head hurts, my throat is dry, I need to sleep but I don't want to." I could go on and on about how I feel in this moment.

"You got wasted."

I feel the blood running through my veins, "did you gave me alcohol?" If he's the reason why I did that, I won't forgive him. He knows how I feel about certain things and he clearly knows how I feel about getting drunk, or smoking, or even cussing. Those things aren't my thing.

"No baby, you know I wouldn't do that. I don't know who did it, and I don't know what you were thinking. You're so against alcohol but believe me, I've never seen you like I saw you last night."

"I don't know what to think. It's not a big of a deal, isn't it? I mean, besides the pain I'm feeling right now in my head and in my entire body." I groan once again.

"It's okay, it's what people at parties do, you'll get over it. Now take this pill and you're going to feel better."

I instantanly grab the medication from his big hand and throw it on my mouth, he hands me a glass of water and I take it in one second. "What was your smirk about before?"

He almost chokes on his saliva, "what? Oh, that-" he tries to laugh but it sounded like a cough, "nothing. It's just that last night, while you were drunk-" he starts pulling on his hair from the back of his head, trying to find the right words to speak "you kinda saw me in an awkward moment and, you know. Gave me a blowjob."

"I-I did what?" I can't believe what he is saying. Any of this. I think my drunk side does what my sober side doesn't has the courage to do. Obviously I wanted to go to the next level with Ethan, but I didn't know how. How am I suppose to do all of that? Find the right situation for it? I don't know. I can't even picture myself doing that. I wish I could remember and I wish I could do it right now but I can't.

"Yeah, don't worry. It was great, but if you want we can make like nothing happened."

"It's okay, it did happen so it will stay like this." It's a shame he actually enjoyed it but I wasn't in a normal state of mind. "What time is it?"

He extends his arm to his nightstand and grabs his phone, "6:13 AM"

"Why are we up this early? I want to throw up and sleep."

"Listen, I woke you up so you could recover now and then you'll be fine at your house, your parents won't suspect a thing. Neither will Noah. The best thing you can do right now is throw up, so you're going to get your cute ass to the bathroom and after you finish throwing up you're going to take a shower. Then you're going to eat breakfast in my bed made by me, and take another pill. Believe me, afterwards you're going to feel perfect."

I did everything he just said. He was right, it's now 8:45 AM and the pill made a good effect on me. I feel clean, and fine. Maybe drinking alcohol isn't such a bad thing. Getting wasted probably yes, and that's why I should try it more often. Perhaps if I have more experience with alcohol I won't abuse of it.

My phone buzzes on the bedsite table and I grab it.

New text from: Groupchat:

Cameron:

Mal, if you're still at my house please come to Violet's place. I need to tell you guys something and Violet wants me to tell her but I want to tell you two at the same time.

To:

Groupchat:

I'm gonna ask Ethan to drive me there

He said no :/ sorry girls, I love him more

He sent that!!! Yes, I'll be there in five minutes

From: Groupchat:

Violet:

Hurry up!!! I want to know what she's going to tell us

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"So, you guys know how much I wanted to hook up with a senior and hot guy, right?" Cameron says and Violet and I nod right before she finish that sentence, "that was basically my dream."

"Come on Cam!" Violet practically yells, she's not a pacient person.

"Long story short, Andrew Taggart is coming over tomorrow." Violet's jaw drops along with mine, "we had kind of a wild night I could say."

"Cameron Dolan, did you have sex with Andrew fucking Taggart?" Violet yells once again.

"What? No!" Violet and I sigh in relief, "yet."

"Cameron!" I exclaim, "you can't just have sex, you never done it before and it is important. You're going to remember it for the rest of your life."

Cameron rolls her eyes, "Malena is right, you need to think about it before you make a mistake."

"But you said it yourself Violet, it's Andrew fucking Taggart." Cam has puppy eyes and she's begging for us to let her have sex with this boy, this situation is funny if you ask me.

Talking about this guy made me remember a little bit more of last night. I was in the kitchen since I had lost my friends, and as I was waiting for Ethan to text me back this Andrew told me I was beautiful and offered me a drink. That's the last thing I remember.

I told the girls about that incident, of course there was nothing to worry about yet Ethan wanted to know who 'got me wasted' and I think I know the answer. The thing is I don't know if I should tell him now because Andrew's coming over to Cam and Ethan's place and it wouldn't be nice for Cameron to have his boy and brother fighting.
Maybe I could invite Ethan to my place tomorrow and have Cameron and Andrew alone, I could tell him there and he wouldn't find out that he was at his house. Perfect.

"So, can I do that?" I ask Cameron for her permission to tell Ethan while she was alone with Andrew.

"Yes you obviously can, and thanks again for inviting Ethan to your house. It would be awkward if any of my brothers caught me doing something... you know." She smirks, "I need to figure out what to do with Grayson though."