Confusing // Ethan Dolan

Chapter eleven

Ethan's POV

She's changing me in a positive way. malena. I don't know what is it that she does, but she does something that makes me want to be different, I want to change. I want to change her decision about relationships too. She makes me feel some type of way nobody ever made me feel. What is she doing to me?

i can't stop thinking about you -I texted her

As much as I wish I could fight these feelings, I can't. It's too difficult. She's always on my mind, no matter when, no matter where. She's all I can think about.

What if she doesn't feel the same? What if all these weird feelings I have don't matter? But why would I be feeling this if she doesn't feel the same way towards me? I mean I never trully compromised to a girl, so I don't know what love is, but I do know Malena is the closest to love I had ever felt.

So, why would a guy like me feel this about a girl who doesn't feel the same way back? I'm guessing she feels the same way I do. well, I hope so.

it's funny...... neither can i

Even by a text she makes me smile like a fucking fool. I'm such a loser. She drives me insane, at this point I don't even know what to do with myself. I can't wait to see her tomorrow at school.

School. I totally forgot about it. I swear to God if I date this girl I will rub it on Madison's face so much. I can't believe what she did to Malena, she's such a little immature whore. But I will tell her story later on.

I keep thinking about Malena. I want to see her and hug her and kiss her and hangout and stuff couples do but I don't want to be called a couple because she doesn't like it.

I didn't like it first but then I realized, what is a couple? A couple is two people who have a relationship, two people who are together. And I want to be with her. I want to kiss her in public and hold her hand as long as I want to do it.

But I don't want to pressure things, I want to go slow and get to know her day by day. Kiss her and hold her hand too but I guess I'm going to do that as friends. friends? That sounds awful. I don't know if I will be calling her my girlfriend soon but I do know she's fucking mine. Does she know that?

you're fucking mine

Now she does.

Malena's POV

I was thinking about him and my phone vibrate on my pocket. It was a text message from Ethan.

you're fucking mine

This boy is making me go crazy. Does he even know what those type of messages do to me? Or the way he looks at me right in my eyes?

He's changing my thoughts about love, about relationships, about boys, about me. He's changing me. Am I changing him?

Grayson and Cameron told me he usually is with a girl just for a night, I think what he feels towards me is not the need to be just for a night. And what I feel towards him is the need of wanting more than just a friendship.

I wish I could be easier like all normal teenage girls and want a serious relationship with a boy. But I think I want a relationship with him. Not now because it would be very very fast, but in a while... Maybe... If he wants that too. I won't ask him what he wants now because I'm sure that what he wants now is not what I want now.

What I want now is him to fight for me, I want him to win my heart.

why are you saying that?

i wanted to make sure u knew

believe me i know

Ethan's POV

believe me i know

wish i could kiss u right now

you're driving me crazy

Malena is going to be my girlfriend. Perhaps we aren't convinced about that idea but we're going to work that together and make it a good decision.