Confusing // Ethan Dolan

Chapter twenty-four

New text from: Ethan:

Craving some pizza and some you

To: Ethan:

Same

Can you pick me up? Let's go eat somewhere

From: Ethan:

Be there in a few. Love you

Lately Ethan and I's relationship has been more and more... cheesy? Yes, kind of. Of course I'm fine with it, and I actually like it, which is weird. At the very beginning of me liking him, I was totally against the start of a relationship.

And that's why I started to think, why? If I like the boy, I should want to date him, kiss him, hug him, whenever I feel like it. I get to show him off because I love him, because he's beautiful, because he treats me so good.

All these love things I've never experienced in my life. I lived in so many places yet I never fell in love. I had feelings for a boy, Jason, it was when I lived in Hawaii.

I moved there in 2008, I was ten years old, and having a new fresh start in another part of the world was always rough for me. Especially since I didn't know anyone.

First day of elementary school. I entereded the first class of the day, I can't even remember what it was, well it's been eight years.

The first thing that catched my eye was a gorgeous blonde kid, dressed in nothing but white. As the shy kid I was, I didn't talked to him.

After two months of no having friends, my parents talked to the teacher and asked her to help me. Miss Jensen has always been my favorite teacher, ever. She's by far one of the nicest persons I know.

One day, she told us we were going to do an act for the movie "The Beauty and The Beast" and I got excited because it was and still is my favorite movie. But then I reminded myself I was probably going to interprate a fork.

She asked us who wanted to play as the beast and some boy hands were raised. She then asked us who wanted to play as the beauty and all of the girl hands were raised.

I kept my mouth shut, both of my arms by my sides, and of course my eyes looking at the floor.

"What about... Malena?" I remember her exact words, "do you want to do the role of the Beauty?"

I looked at her with a little smile on my face and just nodded.

"And the role of the Beast and also the prince will be... Jason." I remember what I felt like it was yesterday, my heart beating hard and feeling the blood of every vein in my body go through it very fast.

After weeks of practicing this play, and Jason and I being good friends, my crush on him was soon going away and turning into a much stronger feeling. Was it love? I don't know, I was very young, and so am I now. But back in those days I was a lot more immature.

Two years had passed by, and Jason and I were still being really good friends. I was still stuck in between love and friendship. How will he feel towards me? That question used to be always on my mind.

Another two years after he gave me my first kiss. And that kiss was the last thing gave after I heard the bad news. He was moving, "I don't know for how long I will be away. But I promise I'll come back for you, or we'll reunite in the future. The first time I saw you four years ago, I couldn't believe my eyes. I'm sorry it took me this long to tell you, I never thought you'll see me more than a friend. I love you Malena, I will never forget about you."