Confusing // Ethan Dolan

Chapter twenty-two

"He did what?" I practically yell to Cameron's face, she called me fifteen minutes ago and I came as soon as I could.

She's crying non-stop. Sobbing like a baby, telling me and Violet what happened.

"He came over a few hours ago because he knew nobody was home. And, he" she continues sobbing, "he tried to have se-sex with me."

As soon as I heard those words I hugged her as thight as I could.

"I don't know what to say Cam. I, I'm so sorry-" Violet starts, "but you said you wanted to have sex with him, why all of sudden you changed your mind? I'm obviously not justifying his acts, I'm just wondering." She's by her other side, also hugging her.

"Because the first time he came over, three weeks ago, I told him I didn't want to. I'm not ready yet." Hearing her cry made me weak. "And still, he tried to do it. I thought he had understood."

"He's so stupid. What an asshole. I can't believe it. I'm honestly so sorry that happened to you, Cam. I love you." I tell her.

"I didn't tell you the worst part yet. After I yelled and cried, Ethan apparead. They got into a fight, I couldn't do anything to help my fucking brother, I'm so stupid-" she cries loud again "-and then, Andrew hitted Ethan leaving him laying on the floor, hurt." I gasp.

"-and Andrew told him he was going to 'fuck his little girlfriend' and that's when Ethan got up and punched him right on his nose. I heard a noise like he broke it or something. Malena, you don't understand, he was very hurt and he got up like nothing had happened, just because Andrew mentioned you. Ethan fucking loves you."

I'm too shocked to answer.

"And then," she sobs again "h-he told me he was using me to get to you. I don't know what I was thinking, I didn't realized he was using me. I'm so stupid, so so so stupid. After all why would a guy like him like a girl like me?"

I couldn't believe her words. Why would he ever do that? After he got me wasted, hooked up with my best friend, punched my boyfriend, then he says that he wants to be with me? I talked to him for like ten minutes.

"What happened afterwards?" Violet mumbles against Cameron's shoulders, still hugging her.

"He just left. I didn't answer him. Ethan told me he was sorry and that if he talks to me ever again he would beat him up, one more time."

"I hope his nose is broken." Violet says jumping from the bed and getting angry at the thought of Andrew, "I hate him. Why did he do that?"

"I don't know... Malena are you okay?" Cameron asks, wipping away a tear from her left eye.

"Yeah. I'm just-" searching for a word to describe my situation "surprised." To be honest, I'm still in shock. I can't believe what I was just told.

But, how could I blame myself? My best friend just told me that her "guy" was with her only because he wanted to be with me. Then, my boyfriend breaks his nose.

Perhaps if I say it like this, it doesn't sound like a big of a deal. But it actually is. I don't care if Ethan broke some asshole's nose because he broke her sister's heart.

In this case I only care what that asshole did to my best friend.

He's the reason why she's sad and crying her eye balls out. I would've never thought I'd see her like this, ever. She's not this type of girl, she doesn't like relationships.

She likes to have fun, be free, she obviously like boys but she never got attached to one. Well, once. Andrew.

She didn't tell us she was getting attached to him, but as I can see, she was.

I'm glad she didn't let him do anything to her, even if he's attractive, even if she thought he was feeling the same.

I always knew she was going to do the right thing, she's a very smart girl.

I have to admit what happened took me by surprise, I think it took everyone by surprise. Violet and I obviously thought Andrew and Cameron were pretty serious for what they were.

Being 'hook up buddies' and seeing each other everyday not just for hooking up but talk, hangout, laugh, and even more, makes your relationship with your 'hook up buddy' something more serious.

I understand why she was getting attached, but what I don't understand is why she felt something for him that he didn't. He was using her, but they built something together.

• • •

"Do you think his nose is broken?" I ask Ethan while I was massaging his back, both of us laying on his bed.

Cameron is asleep, she needs to get some rest.

"I don't know, I don't care but I hope so." He says nonchalant, like what he did is not a big deal.

I know for a fact Andrew deserved it, and I'm actually not sad nor angry at Ethan, but I don't know how his reactions will be in the future.

"I was mad, Malena. You know what he did to Cam and to you. I was angry and I did what I did. What's done it's done."

"But what if one day you'll get mad at me?" I say, holding my hand with my other hand and staring at the wall.

"What?" He turns around and looks at me right in the eyes, I'm obviously not looking back at his. "What did you just say?"

"I don't know, forget about it."

"Do you think I'm capable of hitting you?" He says with another tone in his voice, louder. He touches my chin with his fingers and lifts my head up so I was facing him, still not looking at his eyes.

"Malena, I'm not. I would never, ever, ever, hit you. You're the most precious thing I have. I can't believe it, I-I'm sorry for making you think that I, that I'm uh-" he's out of words.

I know he's not capable of hitting me, but I'm just afraid of how our relationship will keep going. Every single couple fight.

Ethan and I usually don't fight, only if he wants to do something and I don't or viceversa.

I don't consider it a fight though, it's more like a discussion. We both know how our discussions end up: we stay at home sleeping. And that's what I love the most about Ethan and I's relationship, how even if we have differences we can change them for the good.

"Ethan I know you wouldn't hit me. I know you're never going to put a hand on me, ever. I'm just, I don't know-" I let a breathe escape my lips "-scared. Not of you, obviously, you're my boyfriend and I love you. I'm scared of what can happen in the future." I say being completely honest.

"Let's not think about the future. Let's not plan anything right now. You need to learn how to live in the moment and enjoy it." He bites his lip. "I love you."

If only he knew I love him more than he already knows. I want him to realize how happy he makes me just by being him, he made this year for me so much easier than I expected it to be, so much happier. Every little thing he does makes me smile like crazy. I hate being cheesy but love is love, I guess.

"I love you too."