Somebody To Hold (Book 0.5) (AU series) - INTERSEX

Chapter Seven

Josephine

"Mays baby girl, go ahead, get going to the bus stop," Juliet says to her daughter in the back seat.

"Bye, ma. Bye, Josephine. It was nice meeting you," she says, getting out of the car.

As the door shuts, Juliet turns the radio down and locks the doors. I wait for us to drive off, but she waits and watches as her daughter makes it across the street.

"What is it that you want?" She asks, avoiding eye contact.

"You know what I want Juliet," I answer. I light a cigarette and blow smoke into the closed car.

She rolls the window down, trying to air the smoke out, and in doing so, my attention is drawn to a little girl. Her hair is dark and straight as can be. Her eyes are as blue as the sky. It's like looking at a mirror image of my younger self.

My breathing hitches as she glances back at me. I rushed to roll the window back up and let out the breath I was holding. My heart races in my chest, drumming in my ears, and the only thing I feel is pain. My heart aches and longs for what I might've had if I wouldn't have been so young and stupid. Something about her caused a sharp pain, and for a second, I feel extremely claustrophobic in this car.

"Drive," she looks at me in confusion. "Ay dios míos Juliet, drive [Oh my God.]" She does as I say and drives off from the bus stop. As she drives, I barely pay attention to where we are going. "I have a shipment in three days. I'll get it to you then."

She nods and continues to drive towards her house. "Who is she?"

"Hmm? Who?" She answers.

"That little girl that was talking to Macy, with the brown hair."

"Oh, that's Adelaide. The Reed's daughter. They're really nice people. She and Macy are like best friends. I think they have a little crush on each other," she says, chuckling.

"And you're okay with that?" I roll my eyes, asking.

"What? My daughter possibly choosing to be a lesbian. Josephine, I don't give a damn as long as she is happy. Addy's mothers are gay, obviously, and they seem like the perfect couple," she says smiling.

"Her mothers'?"

"Yes, I know you don't have a problem with gay people, right?"

"No." I mutter irritated.

"Was just wondering about the girl, she seems familiar."

"You can say that again. You two look exactly alike." She starts laughing.

"Yeah... whatever."

As we sit in the car driving back to her house I think about the decisions I was faced with in my past.

***

As I sit in this big ass room, there is nothing but big belly pregnant women in sight. I mean, there are a few couples probably trying to conceive and one or two women probably here for the same reason I am. I can't believe they do all of it in the same place. I sigh and look at all the mommy magazines on the table. They look so happy to be pregnant or having a baby on their hips. My hand subconsciously rubs my stomach. I feel pain just thinking about what I've got myself into and how bad my parents will react if they find out. That is why I have to make this decision.

"Oh, you're pregnant. How far along are you?" A woman next to what I'm assuming to be her husband asks. She looks way too eager, so I'm sure they are in the midst of trying. I wish I could be that happy to be here.