Late Night Sessions | JJK X OC X MYG ✔️

21. What If?

Jeongguk's 1st Person POV

"I...what?" I ask Taehyung, rubbing my head as I sit at our kitchen table.

It's mid-morning on a Sunday. I woke up with a hangover thanks to the alcohol I consumed last night at Seokjoong's wedding.

"You kept yelling your love for Cassie almost all night, especially during the ride home. The Uber dropped Cassie off first and you tried to stay at her place but Cassie and I thought it wasn't wise with the state that you were in. We made sure you came back here." Taehyung has been helping me recollect everything that happened last night. He sets a ceramic mug of coffee, with my preferred sugar and milk, next to me. He settles in a chair, beside me, with a glass of orange juice and a bagel with cream cheese for himself.

"Fuck. I can't believe I did that. I do remember saying 'I love you' a lot to Cassie. I just can't believe I really did that. Fuck, I wonder if she remembers any of what happened last night." My elbows rest on the table as I bury my face in my hands. I rub my eyes thinking it would make me feel better, but it doesn't.

I can remember a lot from last night, and I feel embarrassed at how I must've appeared in front of Cassie.

"She drank a lot, but she wasn't as far gone as you were. Plus, she holds her liquor well. So, I'm sure she remembered everything that happened, especially everything you said to her." Taehyung takes a sip of oj and scrolls through his phone.

"Fuck," I breathe out as I pull my hoodie over my head, finding comfort in the material.

"Maybe you should talk to her?" Taehyung suggests, tearing his eyes away from his phone to look at me.

"You're right. I need to see if Cassie's free. I really do need to talk to her." I look at my phone and pull up my text conversation with her.

"What are you going to do, though? Are you just going to tell her you were drunk and didn't mean what you said?" He questions me before taking a bite of his bagel.

"I want to be truthful with Cass," I think out loud.

"Is that right?" Taehyung widens his eyes at me.

"I already put it out there. I'm not going to take it back when I mean it," I tell him as I stare at my phone.

"So, you're actually going to confess?" He stares at me as he holds his now half empty glass of orange juice.

"I'm just going to try to meet with her and be honest." I say out loud, and once those words come out of my mouth, I get apprehensive.

I told Cassie I love her. I did it when I was drunk off my ass, but I wasn't lying when I told her those words.

I do love Cassie. But, what if she really doesn't feel that way at all? What if me saying those words made her uncomfortable? Did I put our friendship in jeopardy? What if she can't return my feelings and feels awkward being around me after what I confessed to her?

"Are you okay?" Taehyung's voice takes me out of my frantic thoughts.

"I don't know. My mind is thinking the worst-case scenarios right now," I say to him, feeling worried.

"Text her, then," Taehyung suggests, plainly. I nod at him and I start typing on my phone, and I send Cassie a text.

Jeongguk:
Hey Cass, can we meet up soon to talk?

Cassie:
Hey, Kook. We can. Just let me know when you're free. You're working at the shop today, right?

Jeongguk:
Yes, I'll be there until 9pm. Would I be able to come over after? Or would it be late for you?