Finally Found You (Loki x Gender Neutral Reader)

Chapter 15 - Loki's Hiding Something

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Y/n's pov

A blur of noise fills my ears once again, my whole body feels numb and cold, like I am drowning underwater.

I try to move, tryto open my eyes, but I can't. I'm trapped.

Trying to focus on any noise, heavy weeping comes into focus, someone is cradling me, they are shaking, a piercing scream growls from their mouth. I can just about feel floods of tears falling on my chest as the person howls.

"Y/an, why? Why you?!" Their voice trembles and cracks

I feel so horrible, I don't want anything other than to comfort this person, their sobs stinging my heart, but I can't move, all I can do is listen as my insides burn up.

"I'm not ready Y/an! I CAN'T DO THIS!"

A loud crash steals me from my thoughts and all my remaining senses fade away.

A buzz of chatter creeps upon my ears. It feels like Deja Vu . I open my eyes and find myself laying in the lab on that hospital bed, but this time I have some more weird wires attached to me with some weird tube that sit under my nose, oddly making it easier to breath. I try and move to my side, that's when I notice there's a cast on my right arm and leg.

I groan, I feel so groggy and sloppy. Good thing I'm already in bed, and also slightly high, probably from the stuff given in the wires. I guess they are called IVs? Does that mean I have needles in my skin? I don't really know how to feel about it, if my body didn't ache my skin would crawl. 

"Hello Y/n, how are you feeling?" I sit up with some ache and see Stephen checking monitors, his eyes are relieved, but there's some tension in his eyebrows.

"Um, did I, well, I assume I exploded again." I give out a nervous chuckle, everything swirls around a bit until I can focus on a blond haired buff dude, good old Steve.

Steve walks over and leans on the side of the bed, smirking, "Yes, you did. If we didn't put you in that room you would have destroyed good chunk of this building. Good thing we found you breathing this time." His eyes soften.

"Oh, sorry I guess." I roll my head to look at him and give an apologetic smile.

"Haha, hey, don't look so worried. I'm not gonna shout at you, you didn't actually destroy anything, well, expect for the contents of your room." Steve pats my casted leg.

Oof, that's a little sore, "How long have I been out for this time?"

Stephen strides over and carefully takes some wires off of me saying, "Just 20 hours, a couple of your ribs were broken, as well as your leg and wrist. You were thrown into the wall I presume."

"My bones broke? They don't feel broken."

"Well they are, unless you have healed already, but no human could heal that fast themselves, unless you are indeed an alien." He glares at me, not so jokingly, a serious glare. I thought Tony was the one who thought I was an alien...

Gulp, but I am a human last time I checked, not that I've ever needed to check. "I have always been able to heal fast, maybe I am fine, no big deal."

Stephen glances at Steve who raises an eyebrow.

"You need to take it easy on the ribs, they shouldn't need any metal splints this time, you need to be on bed rest for a week, then I'll do another x-ray to see if your bones are healing correctly." I nod lightly, as much as I can as he continues, "Since your wrist is broken you won't be able to use crutches for your leg, therefore you will need to use a wheelchair."

A gentle, but frantic knocking come from the glass doors, I turn to see Loki, eager to come in. He looks a bit worse for wear, rings around his eyes, creased clothes... That's odd, he didn't look like that 20 hours ago.

Stephen stands up, with a confused look, seeing Loki he rolled his eyes and walks over to the door to open it.

Loki runs in.

"Y/n! I was so worried, are you okay? How are you feeling? I couldn't-"

"Hey, Loki, I'm fine. Take a breath" I smile gently as he sits on the other side of the bed, hesitantly reaching his hand toward mine, letting it hover an inch away.

Aw, he is nervous, maybe I'm just high and seeing things, that doesn't stop my heart from fluttering. But I have to take my chance, "It's ok, Loki." He smiles back, letting his hand fall onto mine, giving it a squeeze. He is actually holding my hand! Making me turn into a tomato once again I see.

Both Steve and Stephen walked out, Steve chuckling as Stephen tries to hide a smirk.

Loki watches them leave and then turns back to me, "Y/n, really, how are you feeling?"

"To be honest I feel like I can do with a year of sleep." I chuckle.

Loki's eyes seem to glitter as I let out a little yawn.

"You know I care about you Y/n and I-"

"I care about you too Loki, that means I can see that you need more sleep than me, are you ok?"

Loki jerks back a little, visibly shocked at my question. "Um, I- well I was rather, um, worried about you last night and-"

"When was the last time you slept?"

"The night before last."

Yeah, sure... "Tell me when you last slept Loki." I say more sternly.

He gulps and sweeps his hair out if his face, "I don't know, probably last week."

"LAST WEEK!"

He jumps, eyes wide at my characteristic outburst, he then scratches the back of his head, not familiar with someone reacting like this. Something else must be going on, but what? "I was fine before yesterday. What else aren't you telling me?"

"Nothing, Gods can last a while without sleeping, its fine."

Right...

I decide not to press further on the matter, he looks a bit stressed about it. Scratch that, very stressed. His hair is a mess, his usually strong posture has completely disappeared. Could it be to do with the whole Y/an situation? Thor hasn't been very transparent with it either... Maybe Loki needs some time to figure things out for himself, I don't blame him, I still need to process this whole exploding thing. "Just come here Loki, we can both sleep together, it's practically evening right?" I scoot over with a grunt and gesture to the free spot I made on the bed.

Loki hesitantly slips in and lies down.

"Close your eyes." I whisper.

And he does. His eyelashes are so beautiful. "Now that wasn't so hard was it?"

He chuckle as I shuffle closer until my head rests on his arm, my eyes shut and both of us drift into a sweet sleep.