pieces | ethma

trouble

Taryn

I never thought I'd be in this situation.

I never expected Ethan to do what he's done. I never thought he'd break my trust, let alone my heart. I never thought he'd betray me like this and put the blame all on me.

It's strange how the people to whom you give the most trust are the ones that turn their backs on you. 

I knew it was all too good to be true. I thought that I was the one who could change his way of life. That I was changing him. I thought I was strong enough, smart enough and special enough. 

Apparently that isn't so.

I thought Ethan and I had a connection. At least that's what he convinced me of. He got me close enough to feel like I was important to him, and then he was gone. I don't understand all of the things he did, and I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to wrap my head around it. 

I told him everything. He told me enough, but always seemed to keep it vague. He never seemed to tell anyone what was going through his head. He just gave you enough to wonder. To contemplate what he could've been thinking.

I convinced myself I was good at reading him, but I guess I was completely wrong. 

The worst part is that I miss him, and I know for damn sure I'd still do anything for him. Even if he screwed me over the way he did.