pieces | ethma

the story never ends

ethan

the breakup affected me more than it seems to affect every other average male teenager.

or at least that's what i feel like.

i tried to save us, but emma refused to hear me out. i don't think there's any coming back from it.

i truly want what's best for her. i genuinely do.

but i know my heart will shatter all over again the second she finds someone new.

i'm sure it won't take long. she's a beautiful girl who is charming, sweet, and really funny. her sense of humor speaks my language. i loved that about her.

i still do.

maybe i always will.

it was two months later when my buddy john sat down next to me at lunch and said "so, how do you feel about emma's new guy?"

"what? who?"

"levi jorgensen."

i closed my eyes, not even wanting to think about it. but when i open my eyes, the first thing i see is emma giggling at something he said as they walked to a lunch table.

she used to look at me like that. laugh at my jokes like that. now she doesn't even so much as glance my way.

i'd still do anything for her. i wish she knew that. maybe it just wasn't written in the stars for us to be together.

it's a week later when i hear she's moved on from levi.

oh shit.

i know what she's doing.

sure enough, it became known that emma was finding her prospects, keeping them around for a week, and then moving on.

god, my heart hurts so bad.

i just want to be with her. i miss her so much, and i hate that we're not on speaking terms.

she's even told her friends that she wishes we never met. i know she twisted my words and blamed me for everything that went wrong.

it just feels like the story never ends.

i thought she was moving on because she was happy, but now i realize that she's moving on because she's unhappy. that's almost what breaks my heart even more.

she lit a match to all my intentions, and i couldn't stay. how is that my fault?

still, i swallow my words down to the bone. because nothing's that simple.

it might not be meant to be. i might be mad about her blaming me for everything.

but that doesn't mean i don't miss her.

so, when she shows up at my house late one friday night, i know the story isn't over yet.

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inspo for this story came from the song

"The Story Never Ends" by Lauv.

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