Escape (UNDERGOING EDITING)

Whiplash

You know the feeling when you overcome something that has hindered you from doing something else you have wanted to do for so long and then you're high on life for a while and you  feel like you can conquer anything? It's all happy and wonderful until you enter hell again. Easy is the decent into hell though, right? Luke told me the real truth about his past just over a week ago and we had been going strong for a few days.

But then, something happened along the way to cause him to act strange all of a sudden. Stranger than he already does. One second he was totally fine and then the next he would be yelling at everyone. He hasn't yelled at me yet but I just have this bad feeling. His mood swings have been off the charts. With both him and Caitlyn, it's like having two pregnant people living here at once.

When Luke woke this morning, he was as happy as could be. Even though it was storming outside. He woke me up to just go out and play in the rain together. He said something about wanting to kiss and dance in the rain with me. So of course we did and we were sopping messes by the time we came back inside.

Caitlyn, Ashton, Michael, Calum,and Olivia were all situated in the living room just talking. Their heads all turned once we walked in laughing at who knows what and they gave us odd looks but I just laughed and said I was going upstairs to change. Luke on the other hand snapped at them for looking at us a certain way.

I had to drag him upstairs giving everyone apologetic glances before he said anything else that he would regret. I brought him into my room and shut the door quietly. I had asked him what his problem was and why he made such a big deal about nothing. That's when he broke down and began crying. I was so confused and desperate to know what was going on with him but nonetheless, comforted him.

I figured it most likely had to do with dealing with his mom and such so I let it go. I told him to go out onto the balcony since it had stopped raining and give his mom a call. Then maybe he would feel better. He complied and shuffled outside giving me a small smile. He has been out there for almost an hour now and in that time I got ready for what the day would bring.

I sat down again on one of the chairs in my room so I had a good view of Luke. From far away, you could tell that something was off all together. His posture when he spoke about certain things, his gate when he paced, how his eyebrows furrowed in confusion, and so many more signs that he wasn't as okay as he led on to be.

I heard my door open and turned to see Michael and Olivia peeking their heads around the door. I chuckled and waved them inside. "We didn't know what you and Luke were doing so we just wanted to be cautious."Michael said wiggling his eyebrows. I laughed and shoved him playfully as he walked by me to take a seat across from me on the couch.

Olivia sat down in the chair beside mine and had a look of amusement on her face. "Luke has been speaking to his mom for almost the past hour."I said the smile falling from my face. "Why haven't you joined him?"Michael asked kicking his feet up onto the couch and laying down. "He has been very moody lately and so I told him to talk to his mom thinking that the whole cancer thing has been stressing him out. I think he just doesn't know what to do with all his emotions."I stated shrugging.

"Well, his mum has cancer for God's sake."Olivia said. "Ive said this to him and myself time and a time again that I wish I could help him more but I don't know how. But he just dismissed it and says I'm doing fine." I said leaning back further into my chair. "If he wont really tell you how you can help, then what you're doing must be enough, and you have to be okay with that. Luke has never been exactly the most open with his emotions until you came along.

It'll take him some time still to know how to use them since he has hid them away for so long. Even if he does have you."Michael said putting his hands behind his head and crossing his legs lazily. Michael was right. I need to be more understanding and open to figure out Luke more than I already have. Maybe there's things I still don't know about.