Lockdown

Guilt trip

PARI POV

He's mad. 

Why? 

Because I cheated him and made him come into me and then threatened to not have the pill until he gave me my laptop back? 
NO. 

Rather, he's mad because I dropped that juice!

It was just one stupid glass of juice and I could make another but his argument was that he had taken an hour to make it. Like I even believe that! ONE HOUR FOR ONE STUPID JUICE?! Besides, I don't even understand why he made it in the first place. I smelled something suspicious under the surface but as I tried talking to him and he only ignored me, that feeling of it something more than just an effort went to waste kind of went away. 

" Sohi. Please! I'm sorry," 
" Hmpf!" 
" I'll make you another drink na! Same to same! Promise! Please. Just talk to me once na!!!" even if I grabbed his chin and tried to make him look at me, it didn't help! No. Instead, he jerked my hand off his chin, got a huge frown over his face, and continued typing on his keyboard now with earphones in his ears just so that he would not be disturbed by my wails. 
" SOHI!" and I even tried shaking his shoulders but he just ignored me so, after an hour of just apologizing to him, I pouted and got off the bed. Fine! If he wanted to be like that, I could be angry too!!!

" Be happy with your dumb juice!" I slammed the door shut behind me in anger, stomped towards the sofa that I had, and plummeted over it. My hair was all over my face and although I had combed it that very morning, my black hair just didn't look combed at all. There was a cute little pout as well as a big frown over my face as I crossed my hands and played the TV on full volume. If he was going to ignore me, then I was going to make it super hard for him to ignore me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

" I'M NOT GOING TO MAKE YOU LUNCH! YOU BETTER EITHER CHANGE YOUR ATTITUDE OR ORDER ONLINE!!!!" I didn't know that he would take it literally. I would have cooked for him!!! But the moment I opened the door and shouted that at him, all he did was calmly pick up his phone and without even looking at me, he even ordered himself a pizza!!! That bastard!! 

But you know what I did to get back at him? I made his favorite. Rasam rice. Oh yeah, and you know what I saw? I saw him stealing glances at me and my food. So, I casually showed him one spoon 
" Want some?" I raised my eyebrows hoping that he would give in and he was even about to give in when his phone began ringing. THAT DAMNED PHONE! IT WILL ROT IN HELL! AND THE PERSON WHO DARED TO CALL HIM WILL SUFFER ALL SORTS OF DISEASES IN THIS LIFE!!!! 

" I GOT IT BRO!!!" but this time, I heard the guy from the other line shout and immediately, without even looking at me or my food or the pizza that he left behind, that man ran into the room and began typing 
" DON'T YOU WANT TO EAT?!" I came into his room but he didn't even look at me and that made me so damn angry! I went out and I shoved his pizza into my face. You know what?! If he didn't want to talk to me, I was not going to let him have food, and then, he would definitely get mad at me and we would fight but at least that way, we would talk to each other... 

But he didn't come out of that room. 

I waited for literal hours. I played the TV on the highest volume, chatted with my friends, played a few Ludo games, and even fell asleep on the sofa. But he didn't get out of the room. 

And then I really started feeling guilty about dropping his juice. 

I mean, maybe he did put a lot of effort to make it. Besides, he did something sweet like that for me maybe for the first time. He got up early, thought about making something, and even made something other than Maggie without my help! 

By the evening, I was feeling so God darn guilty that I got my ass off the sofa, closed the TV, and made another juice. I didn't know the recipe that he followed in making that juice that he gave me in the morning but, I at least tried. And then, with a timid ass, with all my anger dispersed and only guilt remaining, I got back into my room. 

" Sohit...?" this time, he looked up at me once so, I felt a little confident hence, I walked up to him and showed him the juice 
" I'm sorry! I didn't mean to let it fall like that! I'm just clumsy," but he still didn't reply. I said sorry, Yaar!!!! 
" I don't want this juice," and it felt like a million eons later but thankfully, he said something to me!
" Ok. Fine. What do you want then? I'll make anything," his eyes sparkled as if he had wanted for me to hear that one thing since the morning. But I was dumb. I didn't suspect anything at all when he kept the laptop away, grabbed my waist, and made me sit right in front of him on the bed 
" You take the contraceptives then," silence. 

OK. SO, HE MADE ME GET ANGRY AND THEN, MADE ME FEEL GUILTY FOR THE ENTIRE DAY JUST SO THAT I WOULD HAVE TO TAKE A CONTRACEPTIVE?! OH HO HO. HE WAS GOING TO HOPE THAT HE HADN'T MESSED WITH ME!!!!

" YOU DID ALL THIS JUST TO FORCE ME INTO TAKING THE PILL?!" 
" You tricked me! I don't want to be a father at all!!!!" I frowned and just stared at him for the longest time. It wasn't like I could change his mind... But, it wasn't like he would stay with me either if I were to get pregnant. I mean, it was just a little too soon. I might have known him for about 2 weeks now but, I didn't know his family or how they would accept it or anything. Fine. I agree, I had a dumb request and it was too early for the both of us to be parents but, there was a quirk to it... 
" It wasn't my ovulation day yesterday. It's in a week... I just wanted my laptop back and I thought that you would give it! But no! You try this technique!!! Idiot!" I hit his chest and his face froze for a minute 
" Wait... So...-"
" So no pregnancy idiot!"