Rollercoaster

#34 Drake. Drake. Drake.

It's been a long time. I'm not even gonna try explaining why I haven't updated in a long time but here, I finally have another chapter for you guys.

Also, this violin version of 'In my blood' from Bridgerton above is literally the most beautiful thing I have ever heard. Enjoy.

Chapter 34 Song

In my Blood (Shawn Mendes - Vitamin String Quartet version)

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"Are we gonna talk about it?" I asked Drake, in a break during basketball practice.

I know I went straight to it, but I couldn't stop myself.

I didn't know how these things worked. I think I liked him? Which probably makes no sense since he's such an asshole, but I just did. Did he like me back? I hated that I liked someone so toxic. Loving him would kill me. It was like stepping into a crossfire. I couldn't stay away. I couldn't get too close. I shouldn't like him this way, I was supposed to be an independent person. All my life, I've been in control... but suddenly, I felt like someone else had control of the reigns. 

Drake and I hadn't said a word since that day in New York.

"About what," he replied.

"You know what."

"No. I do not."

God, he was making this so much more harder and awkward than it should be. He could just answer the damn question, but obviously he seemed to enjoy annoying me.

"About everything that happened."

"What happened?"

"Oh fine," I replied irritated. "Be a jackass."

I went back to the team and continued our practice shots. My mind was just filled with him. Drake. Drake. Drake. Graffiti. Stargazing. Kiss. I couldn't stop staring at him when I was supposed to be paying attention to basketball. Moments later, Blake caught me staring at Drake and nudged my shoulder, giving me a smirk.

"Whatever you're thinking, don't," I told him.

That only made him grin wider.

It reminded me that Blake was soon going to be my step-brother. I was going to move in with him and his dad. I didn't know to feel about that too. I mean, I was immensely happy for my mom, but moving into a new life with new people in a new house was just gonna be really hard to adjust to. Especially since Blake and I are the same age and in the same school. I had finally just started to understand this city and now my life was gonna make another complete turn. The wedding was in three weeks and at this point, I really just didn't want to attend it. Be brave. I tried to convince myself this was all for the better and everything was going to be just fine.

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Theatre practice was boring every single time we practiced. I had to just sit and watch the other actors practice. Leslie and Drake were doing well. Watching them act together and pretend to be in love, gave me some sort of gut wrenching feeling.

River, however was making everything much less worse than it could be. We usually sat at the back of the room, plugged in earphones and watched a new movie every time during practice.

I'm sure our teacher had forgotten we existed, since she never really caught us watching or called us back. My mom had made me invite my friends - Kaycee, Leah, River, Noah, Nico and Axl. It was going to be weird seeing everyone dressed in suits and dresses but hell, it was going to be amusing.