✓ | The Clandestine Memoir (Fate's Transgression Series, #1) [UNDER REVISION]

Chapter 2

~•[Chapter 2]•~

SEISHA:

Plotting an escape is easy, but acting it is hard.

Living in this body for days didn't really give me any sign of hope. At night, I am awake chirping with owls, rumbling my body on the bed, trying to let out all the frustrations.

Then, I will find myself in the bathtub, crying and questioning everything. Every day, I am bombarded with different faces of this mansion's maids. Trying to please my boring expression.

After kasi ng pag-utos ko na ibahin ang anyo ng interior sa bahay na ito, wala na akong ginawa kundi tumunga-nga.

I am an impatient woman, that is why the first thing I made was to discard all the unnecessary objects on my sight. After everything had settle, my mind went blank and the only running thought I have is, to flee.

In my last life, I gave up everything. Now, what exactly am I doing here? Why did this suddenly happen?

Ito ba ang mangyayari after matapos ang isang cycle of life? Another cycle to finish? A continuous process of suffering? Or I was bewitched?

Baka 'yong last life ko panaginip lang pala at ito ang totoo, o baka dahil sa impact ng pagkahulog ko na-comatose ako at na-trap ako sa isang panaginip?

I pinched my cheeks, hard. "Ouch! Definitely not a dream!"

I don't know if I am dreaming, or under some sort of curse or spell, nor even know what the hell why I in this body of someone else.

Bakit ako nandito? That is the biggest question that is still unanswered.

Days had passed, and it turned into a whole week of being in this body. I am not completely comfortable with this timeline. Sa dati kong buhay, ako lang mag-isa: nagluluto ng preserved foods, naglalaba, naglilinis, at lahat-lahat ng ginagawa ko araw-araw, gamit ko ang aking kamay at paa.

But in here, in this world, kahit pinulot ko lang 'yong nahulog na dahon sa garden, bigla nalang hahablutin ng isang maid at atubili nilang lilinisin ang lugar.

Tuwing pupunta ako sa kusina para maghanap ng pagkain, hindi ako pinayagan ng Head Maid na humawak ng kahit ano mang kubyertos hangga't hindi dumadaan sa kanya.

Saan man ako pumunta, may kasunod na maid at hindi lang isa o dalawa: anim. Six maids, and led by the Head Maid Helena. Kulang nalang sundan nila ako sa CR. Sa gabi lang talaga ako mag-isa, at doon lumalabas lahat ng pagkatao ko.

In front of everyone, I act the same. I talked, I listened, I even laughed at some point. But, when I am alone, I stare blankly in space, cry until my mucus softens, weep like a child, and even think of dying multiple times.

I don't know why I'm here and I am afraid to do anything that can harm this body. Kaya wala akong nagawa kundi iiyak lahat. Hindi ko alam kung pwede bang saktan ang katawan nato kasi sa dati kong katawan, malaya at kontrolado ko ang balat ko.

This body isn't mine. Naiba ko na nga ang kwarto niya, magiging abusado naman ako kung pakikialaman ko pa ang balat niya. In the end, all I ever did was do nothing.

I don't eat well.
I can't sleep well.
I think too much.
I cry often.

This huge place is too dull, boring, and suffocating. I want to escape every time I am bombarded with all the duties of a Princess. Kahit pa sabihin na nasa recovery stage ako, these continuous messages from the King's Palace, and the Royal Court, I do not know what to do first, anymore.

Zegordia has 29 cities and 128 Districts. The main, which they call the Huin City where the King lives, lies at the center of Zegordia.

At the south part, in Suin City is where the Crown Prince's Palace lies. The Crown Prince's Palace garnered more than 10 hectares of land and was barricaded by strong tall walls.