✓ | The Clandestine Memoir (Fate's Transgression Series, #1) [UNDER REVISION]

Chapter 50

~•[Chapter 50]•~

SEISHA:

"I am so happy."

Lahat kami napatingin sa gawi ng hari ng magsalita ito. He looked at each one of us bearing happiness in those ice green eyes. For sure, iiyak 'yan at pinipigilan niya lang dahil isa siyang makisig at malakas na hari.

Everyone will always describe crying as a weak and trivial expression of humans. Kapag umiyak ka, isang senyales daw iyon ng pagiging mahina dahil umiiral ang emosyon kaysa ang utak.

But, crying is the final stage. If you feel too much happiness, you tend to cry of joy: if you feel too much pain and sadness, you cry because it is too much to handle.

Maybe that is it, we cry because we can never bear the pain, the happiness and sadness, the sorrow, grief, and even the anger that is stimulating inside of us. It is an indicator that we are humans, and we live through our emotions.

"Father, this is a happy time, huwag kang umiyak," panunukso ni Frencia sa ama. "Besides, kumain lang naman tayo nang magkasama— iba din ngayon dahil narito sina Ate Seisha at Kuya Lucius, pero masyado ka na pong emosyonal."

"Minsan lang naman tayo nabubuo, anak. Kung narito lang din sana ang Kuya Lurren mo, pwede na akong mamatay bukas."

"Father!" halos sabay-sabay nilang banggit sa kanilang ama.

"That is not a good joke, Ama." Leveius gave off a darting stare at the King but he jolted back when Frencia handed another leche flan on his table. "Thanks, Cia. Kakasabi mo lang wala nang ganito sa kusina. This is a new inventory!"

"Ate Seisha made that," she said and looked at me. "Should I throw a party?"

Umiling ako na siyang ikinagigil niya. "I have trouble with controlling the heat. Forgive me, your Highness if I only made four of them."

"It is alright, my child. We can arrange a new cooking set for you tomorrow. Hayaan nalang natin si Leveius na ubusin ang ginawa mo."

Nakampante naman ako sa sinabi ng hari.

"It has been a while since I last saw your face, you seem troubled, my child. Alam ko na hindi kayo agad nakapag pahinga ngayong araw dahil sa seremonya. I will not stop you two to go and rest," dugtong niya.

"Ang sabihin mo, gusto mo lang madaliin sila para may apo ka na— aray, Lucius, ano bang problema mo!?" impit na sigaw ni Leveius dahil bigla pa naman siya sinipa ni Lucius sa paa kaya lumundag ng konti ang mesa dahilan para mahulog ang leche flan sa sahig. "Dammit! Brother, that is the last one and you ruined it!"

"Good for you," walang ganang wika ni Lucius. "We must go, Father. Thank you for the preparations, but as you said: we should rest."

Hinila ako ni Lucius patayo at pinasabay sa kanyang pagyuko. Hindi ako nakaangal ng hilain niya ako palabas ng dining hall. Nakita ko pa ang ngiti ni Frencia at kumaway sa akin na para bang sinadya nilang gawin iyon. Napamura tuloy ako sa kinalabasan.

"Susundin mo ba talaga ang sinabi ng hari? We are rude for leaving the hall."

Tinanggal ko ang pagkakahawak niya sa akin at pinagkrus ang mga braso ko. Hindi siya umimik simula ng makaalis kami at nananatiling nauuna sa akin sa paglakad.

"If you did that to continue what we left earlier, then let's get this straight: isali mo ako sa plano niyo," tugon ko.

"Did they know you've regained your memories?" he asked after halting, which made me bumped into his back and bounce back a few inches away. "I am sorry, Sasha. Is your head alright?"